4-27-2001

I Don't Wanna Cry

Rating: PG-13
Genre: Songfic, YAOI, angst
Pairings: 1x2, 3x4 (implied)
Warnings: YAOI, angst
Description: centered on Duo and Heero, mostly Duo Just read, Based off the song I. Don't Wanna Cry. Lyrics by: Mariah Carey ©1990 Vision of Love songs INC.


Once again we sit in silence

After all is said and done

Only emptiness inside us

Baby, look what we've become

We can make a million promises

But we still won't change

It isn't right to stay together

When you only bring each other pain

Duo slowly awoke and turned to look at the clock 4:00 a.m., perfect he'd be able to get this done with the least confrontation possible, he hated breaking up, and this one would be just as hard as any. He struggled to break free of Heero's iron grasp, his lover stirred and muttered something in his sleep but didn't awake, Duo let a sigh of relief pass his lips, the last thing he wanted right now was Heero waking up.

I don't wanna cry

Don't wanna cry

Nothing in the world

Could take us back

To where we used to be

Though I've given you my heart and soul

I must find a way of letting go

‘Cause baby, I don't wanna cry

Duo bit his lip to fight back tears as he packed his clothes and a few other belongings in his backpack

/' Why does this have to end?'/ part of him asked

/' because it's, I-I-t's just not working any more'/

/' but you love him, and he loves you'/

The braided American shook his head, he had more important things to do than have a stupid argument with him self, he had a plane to catch in an hour and a half and sure, Heero loved him, but that really wasn't enough it wasn't exactly like it had been mentioned lately. For the past few weeks the two pilots had lived almost in total silence, barely exchanging 2 words to each other per day. Even sex had lost it's charm and passion it had become almost methodical, just another meaningless daily routine.
Duo had warned himself when they had first gotten together that Heero was incapable of an emotional relationship, but he had lulled himself in to a false sense of security and now it had all come crashing down on him

Too far apart to bridge the distance

But something keeps us hanging on and on

Pretending not to know the difference

Denying what we had is gone

Duo carefully placed the note he had written weeks ago but never had the courage to give until now on the night stand by his soon to be former lover and to one last longing look a the Japanese boy, so innocent and delicate, sleep betraying the true stern and cold face that appeared in waking hours. Heero's sleeping face is what had caused Duo to fall for him, spending many insomatic nights sharing a room, watching that innocent sleeping face and somehow believing that it could return his affection.
Then Duo felt his anger begin to boil over the sadness that had prevailed before, Heero was oblivious to what was going on! It had been 2 weeks since Duo had quit his routine of telling Heero he loved him at every opportunity and the Japanese pilot had taken no notice what so ever, or if he had, Heero definitely hadn't said anything about it

Every moment we're together

It's just breaking me down

I know we swore it was forever

But it hurts too much to stay around

Duo slung his backpack over one shoulder and let his violet eyes gaze longingly once more over the false angel that lay sleeping in the bed they used to share he bit down on his lower lip again to suppress another bout on tears and turned around to leave.

I don't wanna cry

Don't wanna cry

Nothing in the world

Could take us back

To where we used to be

Though I've given you my heart and soul

I must find a way of letting go

‘Cause baby, I don't wanna cry

Duo left the key to the apartment they had shared on the kitchen table and walked out the door, not looking back again.

All the magic's gone

There's just a shadow of a memory

Something just went wrong

We can't go on make-believing

Duo slowly walked the 6 blocks to the airport with his head down, deep in thought, annotating his situation, Quatre had agreed to let him come stay with he and Trowa, though he really thought Duo should try and work things out with Heero. He might run into Heero again on a mission or something, but it was all over there was nothing left to say
As Duo sat in his seat, staring out the window of the plane he whispered so quietly he could barely hear himself "Goodbye Heero Yuy, I really did love you"

I don't wanna cry

Don't wanna cry

Nothing in the world

Could take us back

To where we used to be

Though I've given you my heart and soul

I must find a way of letting go

‘Cause baby, I don't wanna cry


OK third cout'em 1-2-3 fic I wrote first real angst, whaddya think? Hn, I like humor so much better, but to each her own