6-3-2003
Disclaimer: Bandai, Sunrise and the Sotsu Agency own Gundam Wing and its characters not me but these few words are mine!
Title: Words are Not Enough
Author: Tai (tai01@tiscali.co.uk)
Pairings: 1x2x1
Warnings: Angst, POV
Spoilers: None
Dedication: To Matt

 

I'm so tired. Emotionally, I feel like I'm standing at the edge of a yawning abyss, teetering, just keeping my balance, knowing that if I fall, I will be overwhelmed by the dark despair I have kept at bay for weeks, months ... what seems like forever. I'm trying to be strong for you, for us but it is getting harder and harder as you push me further and further away.

Hateful words fall from your lips and I cry, "Can't you see that you're not the only one suffering here? Don't you realise how it cuts me up inside to know that I cannot make you happy?"

A look of pure misery crosses your face as you fall to your knees in front of me, clinging onto my waist begging my forgiveness. Telling me that you're so sorry for everything you said, that I am the most important thing in the world to you and that nothing else matters. The warmth of your arms around me, the weight of your head on my stomach, I've missed this so much and I sigh, wishing I could believe what you are saying but I've heard it too many times now.

Words are just not enough anymore ...

~owari~