Title: Otherside
Author: Misty "Saturn" Alexander
Song: Otherside/Red Hot Chili Peppers
Disclaimer:I do not own Gundam Wing, nor do I claim to own gundam wing. I do not own otherside or Red Hot Chili Peppers (although i wouldn't mind...) Nor do I claim to own it. I merely own the fic idea. So kiss the mistletoe I've hung on the back of my pants....
Warnings: Limey,angst,death times 2,and lemon in part four..slight tissue warning.. ::grin::
Rating: part 1R,part 2 R,part 3 R,part 4 NC-17
Pairings: 2x4,1x2,1xR
Authors note: I've taken another fic challenge..go me! umm anyway song lyrics in {} these and inner thoughts in //these....Relena haters will love this..Relena Lovers will hate this...I'm glad to make some of you happy...to the rest..Read the last line of my disclaimer! BTW C&C would be great!

Otherside

{}How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever{}

It had been a long road for Quatre after the wars were over. He was often times confused about everything. About all of the blood on his hands. He and Duo had become lovers during the war. But it seemed not even love could help him. He slid further and further away from Duo, away from the world. It happened quickly, Duo had gone out to do some shopping, and when he came home he found the house in a bloody mess. He had followed the blood and come to the body which it had come from. Quatre lay there cold and lifeless, a straight razor in his hands. His throat slit.

{}I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up it brought up the past{}

About six months after finding him cold and dead, Duo sit in mental ward. For long periods of time he'd stare at a photograph of him and the other gundam pilots. Usually focusing on the blonde haired Arabian angel. And then and again he would glance at Heero. The Japanese youth was probably living somewhere far away by now. He and Duo had become close friends, and then after the wars they parted ways. Duo broke into tears wishing that Heero would come, and make this bad dream go away. In some way he was falling in love with the image of strength in that picture. The perfect soldier.

{}Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the otherside{}

Sometime during Duo's stay at the institution they had informed the Japanese pilot of what had happened. One day out of the blue he showed up. Duo greeted him by running to him and throwing his arms around him. Violet orbs bursting into tears, Duo had given up on the whole boy's don't cry thing. He sniffled and Heero held him close, letting him cry. The braided boy cried to Heero and begged him not to ever leave. That he was the last thing on earth he still had. "Heero... don't leave please don't leave.. never go back.... I want to start life again... But this time with you.. I... love you Heero"

Heero was shocked by these statements, but he had always cared about the boy, and was even saddened when he left with Quatre after the wars. So he took Duo from the place and they went to start their lives over.

{}Centuries are what it meant to me
A cemetery where I marry the sea{}

It had been a year and six months since it had all happened, Duo was doing quite well. Heero and him had grown closer and become lovers very quickly. They spent day and night together, just being happy and in love. It seemed Duo had nearly forgot about the horrible events, the nightmares had stopped and he was living normally again. Heero knew that Duo would request to go to the cemetary sooner or later, and of course he did. It was the a year and six months exactly to the day. The Japanese boy took Duo to a local flower shop and they made their way to the cemetary. Once there Heero and Duo went to the grave. Duo cried a bit and held Heero close, then after a while he asked to be alone. Heero granted his wish and went to the car to wait. It was then and there that Duo knew he had to totally move on. It was hard for him to make that descion, to some degree it would have been easier to swim across the ocean.

{}Stranger things could never change my mind
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on{}

Soon after visiting the cemetary the nightmares returned, this time they were worse. Sometimes in the middle of the night he would wake up screaming and crying, and Heero would always be there to hold him close and comfort him. He would have these horrible dreams that he would never tell Heero about. Quatre would appear to him bloody and screaming about how his death was all Duo's fault. And how he would never forgive Duo for being with Heero. It took months for the dreams to stop again, but despite the dreams the young American went on with life. He refused to be stuck in mourning every moment of every day. And he kept that promise to himself. He just took on the real world and life straight on, trying his hardest to make things work out for his life.