4-1-2002

I'm not in love (Teaser?)
Author: Lunadeath (Lunadeath02@aol.com)
Archived: I Love Bishonen Site: (http://www.stormloader.com/users/ilovebshonen/gwindex.html),
The DHML: (http://kikotei_dhml.tripod.com),
The team rocket and Shinigami castle: (http://duowolf.crosswinds.net/index2.html),
Joygasm: (http://www.heavenlycreature.net/joygasm)
And soon others.

Category: Shonen ai, slight sap, angst, lime
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: 1x2
Warnings: slight NCS (I think)
Spoilers: none
Notes: An odd twist to a 1+2 fic
##Flashback##
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It was just after a mission, and Duo was totally exhausted. He flopped down on the bed, clad in only his shorts. His room was jointed with Heero Yuy's, his partner. He had a feeling that he was still on the computer cause the light was still shining underneath the door.

Duo was just about to fall asleep when he felt something brush up against him. The covers moved, and then there was a dip behind him on the bed. A warm arm laid itself across him, and then a face buried itself into the back of his braid.

Eyes still closed, Duo huffed, knowing full well whom it was.

"Nightmare again, ne?"

The figure behind him jerked, possibly surprised that Duo was still awake.

"Aa."

Duo sighed in his pillow, gripping the sides of it. The arm that was around him moved up and the hand started to caress the top of Duo's shoulder. The light sheet on top of them slipped down a bit, resting on the curve of their hips.

"Heero…" Duo knit his brows together, "Stop it and go to sleep." Heero kissed the side of his face, still rubbing his hand up and down Duo's arm. "Did you hear me?"

"I heard you." Heero whispered in his ear. He nibbled on that earlobe for good measure, "I have told you how I felt about you but you haven't told me anything back. You let me hold your hand that one day when we were looking over the edge of the cliff at the Oz base… so I must know, because you're confusing me."

"There's nothing to tell, Heero. I need time to make up my mind about everything. Let me get over the shock first, ok?"

"Duo…" Heero kissed down the longhaired teen's neck, "Please… I want to show you how much I love you…"

Duo tried to ignore the erotic sensations from the mere touches that Heero was giving. Every caress and nip drove him slowly insane, and his body heated up instantly when Heero practically plastered himself against him.

"When we were over looking the base, holding hands, I thought I saw something… in your eyes…" Heero kissed the nape of Duo's neck. The braided pilot arched back against him, shutting his eyes tightly.

"Please stop it, Heero… I don't want to… I told you that I don't want to…"

##

"Heero… I don't want to fall in love."

"But why?" Heero and Duo were standing on the edge of a cliff high above the enemy's base. When Heero saw him standing there, arms folded over his chest, eyes half closed, staring down at the Oz base, he saw the perfect opportunity to tell the longhaired baka just how he felt.

"Everyone that I loved, romantically or not, had died on me. There's no room in Death's world for love. The moment I get it, I lose it. It's not worth it… none of it is."

Heero shut his eyes, feeling his heart hammering in his chest, "I was told… a long time ago… that to live a good life one must follow their emotions. That's all I'm doing. I just need to know… how do you feel about me? Do I disgust you now? Or do you still want to be friends?"

Duo turned half way, looking at Heero like he was trying to figure him out, "We're friends, as far as I know. And I'm glad that you feel that way for me, but I mustn't accept your love. You will die if I do."

Heero shook his head, "You can't help what happens. This is war and people die, but… I have found the reason to live, and not just because I want to see what a peaceful world is like when the war is over. I want to live to be with you."

"You're asking for a miracle, Heero. And I haven't seen any,
ever. The only thing I've seen is death."

"Duo… I'm sorry, but I can't help myself. All of my training hasn't prepared me for this. I don't know how to handle it alone. Please tell me how you feel about me…"

"No!" Duo turned sharply, eyes blazing back down at the enemy's base, "I can't afford to fall in love! My heart belongs to NO one! Understand?" He quickly wiped the side of his cheek, "Now leave me alone."

Heero turned to walk away, "I see. In other words, you don't care about anyone else but yourself."

Duo turned around and snarled, "That's NOT what I said!"

"Oh?" Heero walked back over to face his partner, "That's what it sounded like to me."

"Heero…"

The Wing pilot took Duo's hand into his, squeezing it. "I'm sorry, but I love you… and you can't stop me from loving you. Please tell me how you feel."

Duo looked away, trying to hide his tears, "Nothing. I am death and I feel nothing."

They continued to stand there, looking at the Oz base, holding hands.
##

 

Heero continued to touch and kiss Duo's half naked body, listening to the slight moans and groans emitting from his mouth. Heero leaned over and kissed the side of Duo's lips and Duo lightly kissed back automatically. Heero had gotten him to roll over onto his back, but he stayed on his side, being as careful as he could so he wouldn't make any sudden moves that would make Duo leave.

Duo groaned, "I don't want to fall in love… please."

"Duo," Heero kissed his lips gently, "It happens. We're human and we have human emotions. Love is a part of life, even though it's confusing at times."

The Deathscythe pilot put his hands out, trying to push Heero away, "Please stop or I'll… or I'll kill you!"

Heero smirked, "I thought that was my line."

"I mean it, Heero!" He tried to push him away, but Heero held fast.

"You must learn to let go of your fear."

Duo laughed chidingly, "What fear?"

"The fear of loving, of getting your heart broken. I will never break your heart, Duo. I want to stay with you."

"It's no surprise that you would love death…" Duo smirked.

"Duo, I'm serious."

"So am I." Duo glared, "And you can't help breaking my heart, Heero. Shinigami will see to it."

Heero leaned forward and gently took the other teen's lips again, "Please let me love you… let me into your heart, Duo."

Duo turned his head away as Heero slowly straddled his rigid body. Heero began to carefully taste every inch of Duo's chest and wide shoulders. He massaged wherever he touched, savored wherever his lips landed, and took in every little sound that escaped Duo's mouth. The other teen's body was taut underneath him, and he knew that he was getting something from Duo that he hadn't given anyone in a long, long time.

"Let go, Duo…" Heero panted, "Open your heart to me."

"Heero…" Duo arched his body into those light caresses. He could no longer fight. He felt his heart weaken more and more Heero showed him his gentle side. He grit his teeth when Heero's hand found his aching sex, petting and stroking, bringing him to that brink of pleasure that he had never wanted to share with anyone else. But it was coming anyways, no matter how hard Duo tried to stop it. It was happening, and he was powerless to stop. His hips jerked upward and it all came pouring out of him, the walls around his heart came crashing down.

Panting slightly, Duo turned his head, eyes closed, trying to bury as much of his face as he possibly could.

"I'm not in love with you… I'm not…" Duo murmured.

Heero kissed a salty bead away from Duo's temple, "But I love you."

 

~End?

 

Should I go on from there, or would this be a good enough end? I'm not sure yet. ^_^