8-27-2001

Duo: What are we doing here?
Jeanne: Ummm I'm sending out the fic to the nice people at the ML
Nuriko: What does that have to do with us?
Jeanne: Well when I write my original intro's they are kinda writen for the ff.net people
Minako: So we have to do new intro's for the ML?
Jeanne: Er yeah?
Fuu: Oh well that's nice of you Jeanne.
Jeanne: SEE! WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE BE LIKE FUU! SHE LIKES HER JOB!
Fuu: Actualy I just think that the people were confused when reading your story. I would much rather not be doing more openings.
Jeanne: ~glare~ Read the fic and send all coments to me...flames will also be accepted, read, and judged acordingly.

Jeanne: AH! I'M AFRAID!!!!!!!
Duo: Why?
Nuriko: What you didn't hear?
Duo: Hear what? Jeanne what are the talking about?
Jeanne: It's okay...it's okay...they won't hurt you...it's okay...it's okay they won't hurt you...
Fuu: I believe Jeanne has done something rather stupid again, although I may be wrong I believe this has something to do with another song fic.
Duo: AHH! NO WAY SHE DIDN'T!!! ~to Jeanne~ YOU DIDN'T RIGHT? RIGHT?!?!?!?!
Jeanne: ~sob~ I DID! WAHHH I DID I DID I DID!
Minako: ~examines fic~ Yup it's another 1x2 song fic. EEEP! And look at the angst! WOW and not to meantion the obvious strong Yaoi background...Jeanne this is quite the fic.
PPC: HEY IT ENDS UP 1x2 doesn't it??!?!?!!?
Jeanne: Princess P-chan?
PPC: YUP! HIIII! ANYHOW does it end up 1x2 or not!?!?!
Jeanne: Umm read and find out...
Duo: WAIT SO YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT YOU'RE WRITING ABOUT ME AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN!?!!?!?!?!?!?!
Jeanne: Umm well yup that about sums it up. ~Notes evil glare from Duo~ I've got ideas I've got ideas...don't worry. I'm fairly sure I couldn't stand not giving this a good ending.
PPC: WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!! I WANT MY 1x2NESS!!!!!
Jeanne: EEP! ~hides~ ALL STANDARD DISCLAIMERS APPLY TO THIS FIC! I OWN NOTHING! THE SONG THAT I DON'T KNOW THE NAME OF BECAUSE IT'S A BONUS TRACK IS BY BLINK 182. I KNOW THAT IT WASN'T THE BEST SONG TO PICK BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE HAS HEARD IT BUT IT INSPIRED ME NONE THE LESS SO :P

 

 

I'm sick of always hearing all these sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy that he's lost and alone

Duo Maxwell harshly tossed his radio alarm clock across the room. Not only has it yanked him from his blissful alcohol induced dreamless sleep to the pain of a morning hangover, but also it was belting out the old *NSYNC song "I want you back." The song itself happened to be ever so fitting to Duo's current situation.

'Ever so true though...I really do want him back.' Duo thought. He slowly stood up. He was good with hangovers. He wasn't so good at dealing with the other side of his bed that remained mostly made since it hadn't been slept in that night. Duo sighed as his mind sadly wondered to the night before.

//"Duo, this just isn't working." Heero said as the two sat at the dinner table.

"What are you talking about Heero?" Duo smiled at his lover even though he was rather confused by the statemeant.

"I can't do this anymore." Heero gestured around at the apartmeant as he spoke. "I can't play his little game of house with you anymore Duo. We need to brake away. We're clinging to remnants of a past. What's left is created from some comfort we cling to from the way. But now there is a peaceful world out there begging for us to be a part of it. The longer we stay this way, the longer we procrastinate the inevitable. So it has to end Duo."

"Heero?" Duo wasn't sure, but he thought his voice quivered as he spoke. He could also feel something hot forming around his eyes.//

Heero stood up from the table. He entered their room and returned with a suit case in his hand. Duo couldn't help but think of how efficient the 'perfet soldier" still was. "Goodbye Duo." without giving Duo the time he needed to process and retaliate properly Duo only mumbled, "Heero." as the love of his life walked out the door.

Duo slowly stood up and tried to prepare himself for the day ahead. Both in a meantal way and a physical way.

I hate our favorite restaurant, our favorite movie, our favorite show

Walking down the street was very hard for Duo. The block he and Heero had lived on was full of so many memories. First there was the little market on the first floor of their apartmeant. It had been the place where they would get their paper in the morning and fight over what to watch on TV that night. It usual resorted in Heero allowing Duo to watch his choice out of what Duo had thought was pure love. That led Duo's mind and feet to the restaurant where they had eaten every Wednesday night. Heero claimed it was his favorite, but Duo knew that Italian was defiantly not what Heero would like to be eating. Finally Duo saw the last thing on the street that reminded him of Heero. That was a small movie theater that usual only showed old AD American movies so a lot of people didn't go there. Just last week the two of them had watched The Fast and the Furious.

We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high and never answer the phone.

Duo walked a little until he reached a Starbucks down a few blocks. Not even bothering to put on his "happy mask" he ordered a espresso frappichino and sat down. His mind now drifted back to the happy times when he and Heero had just lived.

//"Honey, you're home!" Duo said sarcastically as Heero entered the door. Heero suddenly noticed the pink apron and large poofy skirt Duo had put on. He really looked like a house wife out of the 50's. Heero cuckled and pulled his "House wife" closer to him and locking him in a very passionate kiss.

"Why are you all dressed up dear?" Heero after Duo broke the kiss and dragged Heero to the table.

"Well I have some special things planed for tonight."

"Like..." Heero coxed.

"Heero dear, can't you just guess?" Duo said smirking coyly.

Heero now also smirked. "Well then we better eat."

"Mmm yes, because I'm very hungry Hee-chan." Duo winked.

"Good because I've worked up a nice appetit as well Duo."

"Mmm..." Duo said abandoning his spot at the table and walking over to Heero pulling Heero to stand. "Well, we better do something about that then eh Hee-koi?" Duo slowly pressed himself onto Heero who in return pressed back.

Suddenly Heero picked up Duo and carried him into the bed room. Both of them knew they wouldn't be eating any actual food that night. Nor would they get very much sleep.//

Duo smirked a little. But then the idea that all that time it had just been a game to Heero came back to him. Just knowing that all of that...that it had just been some game for Heero. A stupid game to have something to love and he didn't care anymore.

I can't forgive can't forget can't give in
What went wrong cause you said this was right?
You fucked up my life.

Suddenly Duo resolved that he didn't care. If Heero had wanted him to care he wouldn't have let Duo waste all that time when they were together. So now, Duo wouldn't care any more. They had said that this was true love...or at least just regular love, whatever that was. It was supposed to be okay...and now Duo felt as though his life was over

I'm sick of always hearing sappy love songs on the radio
This place, it's fucking cursed in it's plague and I can never escape when my heart it explodes.
I can't forgive can't forget can't give in
What went wrong cause you said this was right
you fucked up my life.

It happened again. Another love song came onto the Starbucks radio. Duo quickly left the building and reluctantly returned to his apartmeant. He figured he would have to get a real job now. That meant not being able to do volentar work at the church day care anymore. But he needed to pay the rent and have food on the table. Duo stood in the doorway to his apartmeant and looked around. Everything there reminded him of Heero. How the hell was he supposed to live and survive here???

I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me, what went wrong?
I'm kicking...