disclaimer: the boys aren't mine. i just manipulate them for my own personal enjoyment.
title: momentary lapse of reason
rating: *this fic is not yet rated* - now officially NC-17
archive: shinigami & wing http://www.1X2X1.org
feedback: it's necessary to live...so, yes!
warnings for entire fic: shounen-ai/yaoi, angst, duo/heero torture, language, sap, small lemon-ish spots(?), AU (AC 200)
spoilers: none
pairings: odd....can't explain but it involves heero and duo and 3X4 implied.
notes: another one that came to me in dreamscape. yes, i know, i have weird dreams. you should see what happens after i eat pepperoni pizza ^_~

//heero's thoughts//
:: duo's thoughts ::


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 36

The trip to the airport was made without incident and the two quickly seated themselves toward the front of the DC-9. Being one of the first passengers to board, Duo found himself a window seat. "Mind?" he asked looking up at Heero. "Nope." he replied, placing his bag into the overhead compartment. "Pass me your bag, Duo." he requested, setting it beside his own. Firmly closing the hatch door, Heero slid down into his seat next to Duo and looked over at him.

"Bet you never thought you'd be coming back with extra baggage." Duo winked at him.

"I was hoping I would." he replied, taking Duo's hand in his. "And I don't exactly consider you baggage." he smiled.

Duo's statement turned serious. "Heero...", he started, "I want things to move forward with our relationship."

The words seemed to come out of nowhere and Heero was pleased at that Duo was thinking about it, perhaps even as much as he was. "Me too." Heero smiled.

Duo's offered Heero a weak smile before continuing. "I'm not ready yet, Heero.... but I needed to be sure you are still willing to move forward with this.

"I'm just waiting for you, Duo. I'll wait as long as I have to."

"It won't be that long." he returned. Giving Heero a warm smile, he turned to face forward and rested his head back, closing his eyes.

Heero was unsure what was holding Duo back and the idea of bringing the subject up crossed his mind. He glanced over at Duo and lightly sighed before looking down a their still entwined fingers. Whatever it was, he would just have to be patient until Duo was ready to tell him. He found it was something he could easily live with. It was a small price to pay considering what they had been through.... it's importance reduced even further by the reality of what lie beyond.


"Nice car!" Duo grinned as Heero stopped beside the jet black Ferrari with keys in hand.

"Thanks." Heero smiled, taking Duo's bags from him. "It's part of my California image." Opening the back door, Heero set their bags down on the tiny seat and unlocked the front door, opening it to let Duo in. Making his way around the car to the drivers side, Heero slid down into the set and lowered his visor, removing a pair of wire rimmed sunglasses.

Duo watched as Heero slipped them on. "More of your California image?" he asked.

"Yup." He replied, starting the engine.

Duo kept his eyes glued to Heero as he turned his body within the seat to back out of the parking spot. He couldn't imagine finding Heero more attractive than he already did, but the dark glasses he wore highlighted the sharp angles of his face; making the already gorgeous young man even look more stunning. Duo fastened his seatbelt and reclined back into the smooth leather seat, once again looking over at Heero. "I think I'm going to like this new image."

Heero looked over at Duo as they approached at thruway entrance. "I hope so." he smiled, stepping on the gas. The car suddenly sped forward sending the two further back into their seats and the wind through their hair.

"No doubt about." Duo grinned.


Heero's apartment was smaller than Duo had imagined. The one tiny bedroom and living room/kitchen areas were sparsely, but tastefully decorated. It reflected Heero's minimalist attitude, the lack of lighting perhaps a symbol of Heero's state of mind since his move.

"You can have the bed. I sleep on the couch most nights anyway." Heero told him, carrying Duo's bag into his bedroom. "Bathroom is over there." Heero pointed. "And this is the living room slash kitchen. A far cry from the house back in New York, but it suits my needs.

"It's nice, Heero. It's you." he smiled.

"How about we go get a quick bite to eat? You must be starved." Heero looked down at his watch. "It's a little after 10 and I have to be up for work at 6."

"Sounds perfect. You need to make me a list of things to do around here while you're at work... though it might just be nice to hang out and not do anything for a change."

"We'll talk over dinner." Heero returned, opening the apartment door. "After you...." he announced, stepping aside with a sweep of his arm to allow Duo to pass. Closing and locking the door, the two made their way to the elevator.

"So, where are we going?"

"Someplace quiet." Heero replied, pressing the L button on the elevator panel.

"Is this a date?" Duo asked through a chuckle.

"Maybe." Heero smiled, taking Duo's hand as they stepped out into the Lobby.


The first three days of Duo's visit flew by.

He had found a myriad of activities to keep himself occupied while Heero was at work. Aside from his occasional excursion to do some required sight-seeing, Duo remained, for the most part, inside the apartment. His other ventures outside consisted mainly of food shopping. His appetite had returned and while Heero had teased him about eating him out of house and home, Duo knew it pleased him. They had gone out to dinner the first three nights of his stay despite the fact that Heero looked exhausted when he came home from work. The two had been staying up fairly late since his arrival and it was taking it's toll on him. Figuring that Heero might a enjoy dinner at home one night, Duo made a list and headed for the supermarket.

As expected, his efforts were greatly appreciated and Heero did not fail to let him know.


Duo woke on Wednesday at around 10:00, smiling as he sat up looked around the small room. Everything in it reminded him of Heero and his body reacted to it. The past few days the two had achieved a closeness that brought the inevitable to the forefront of Duo's thoughts. It took a conscious effort to push his mounting desires aside and it was growing more difficult everyday.

Rising from the bed, Duo opened the closet door and stood before the mirror in nothing but his black boxers. He was pleased to see that he had been successful in putting back on a good portion of the weight he had lost. Looking once again at his reflection, Duo brought his fingers down to touch the lower half of his right arm. The marks were still deep red and heavily visible against his pale skin. He shook his head and closed the closet door. Grabbing a clean set of clothes, he headed into the bathroom for his morning shower.


Once inside the small room, Duo bent and peering inside, pulled the last two towels from the cabinet beneath the sink. Nearly doing a double take, Duo looked back into the cabinet, grinning as he removed his discovery. Duo stood and looked down at sizable dildo he held, chuckling as he ran his fingers over it. "You surprise me, Yuy." he grinned, his body tingling as he felt himself harden within the silky fabric of his boxers. He bent to return the toy to it's home under the sink beside a small tube of Astroglide. "Though it's not nearly as large as mine at home." he smirked as he stood.

Now fully erect, Duo slid his boxers down and stepped out of them, looking down at his erection. "Gonna have to do something about that." he smiled, turning on the water. Entering the shower Duo took a deep breath and leaned up against the cool tile wall, wrapping his fingers securely around his stiffness, he exhaled as he slowly began pumping its length.

The hot water soon filled the shower with steam and Duo was suddenly assaulted by it's soothing warmth and the scent it carried with it. "Mmm... Heero." he moaned out loud, squeezing his cock as he worked the now oozing slickness over its head with his thumb. "Oh, God...it's been too long." he groaned as he slid down the wall to the warm porcelain below.

Removing his hand from his erection, Duo slid the shower curtain open and leaned over the side of the tub to open the cabinet door. "There's one advantage to having a really small bathroom." he laughed, closing the shower curtain once he had the necessary items in hand.

Adjusting the water temperature, Duo brought himself to his knees and covered the dildo with lube. He rubbed it lightly against his entrance and took his cock back into his hand. "Nnn...much better." he moaned, as he began stroking himself. Recalling his lack of sexual desire the past few months, he eased just the tip of the dildo inside his opening and began moving it and out with a gentle rhythm, each time pushing it bit further inside as his body slowly gave way to the intrusion.

Closing his eyes, he relaxed down onto his folded legs and let out a loud gasp as he fully impaled himself on the slick plastic. Roughly sliding his hand up and down his shaft, he began rocking his hips up into his touch as he worked the dildo inside himself. "Oh, yes.....that's gonna do it.." he cried out as he found and stimulated his prostate. Plunging the dildo deep inside, his fist tightened around his cock and he pumped it hard, crying out Heero's name as his body shuddered violently in climax.


The two had agreed on having pizza for dinner on Wednesday night and Heero entered the apartment at 4:45, large box in hand. Setting it down on the kitchen table, Heero called out. "Duo? You home?" Hearing no reply, Heero changed out of his work clothes and into a pair of shorts and a t-shirt before heading back toward the kitchen. Hearing a key in the front door, he opened it to find Duo on the other side. "We were out of soda." he smiled as he entered the apartment.

"Have a good day?" he asked.

"Same as usual." Heero replied. "You?"

"Pretty much the same." he winked, entering the kitchen. "I'll get plates and glasses."

Heero moved the pizza box from the table to the counter beside the sink, his eyes opening wide at what he saw. "Duo?" he questioned. "What is this doing here?" he asked.

Duo closed the cabinet door that blocked his view and looked over at Heero. His face was a pale shade of pink as he held the dildo up for Duo to see.

"Don't worry." he grinned, "I washed it when I was done."

Heero was unable to stop his body's reaction to the graphic vision that naturally accompanied the words. "Duo.", he scolded.

Duo smiled as he looked at Heero, his eyes moving downward to focus on the obvious arousal he was now sporting. "Mmmm... Nice reaction, Heero."

Heero blushed further as he looked down at himself, immediately sitting at the table before looking back up at Duo.

"Yes, Duo. Very nice indeed" he grinned back, staring at Duo's own reaction, causing the braided young man's face to redden as well.

Duo stepped back, allowing the cabinet to hide the bulge in his jeans. "You're so easy to tease." Duo smiled.

"The same could be said for you as well." Heero returned with a smirk. "Now come over here and let's have dinner. I'm starved."


The two spent the rest of evening out at Heero's suggestion they take a drive.

It was a warm night and they used the better portion of it to walk around the bustling streets of the local hot spot. It reminded Duo of the Village back in New York as the narrow streets were dotted with galleries, shops, cafe's and an occasional bar. They had stopped in for a late snack at one of the more lively ones, the voice of a female singer drawing their attention from the sidewalk.

The late hour once again an issue, they took the leisurely ride back home and headed straight for their beds.


Changing into a pair of cotton shorts, Heero laid down on the couch and covered himself with a sheet. As with the last few nights, he was thoroughly exhausted and his body welcomed the rest. He could hear Duo moving around in the other room and his mind wandered back to Duo's tease earlier in the evening. It wasn't the first time he had done something to purposely arouse Heero since he'd arrived, but Heero had to admit it was the most outrageous, nearly laughing at the episode. Though neither one of them had any real sexual experience, Heero was certain that Duo was going to make one heck of a lover.

That idea stayed with him as he attempted to sleep. The vision of Duo's earlier actions made their way into his thoughts as well and Heero soon found himself unable to ignore his body's rising need. Slipping his hand down into the waistband of his shorts, Heero wrapped his hand tightly around his arousal and stifled a moan. He had previously masturbated as he pictured Duo touching himself, but the knowledge that he had done it that very afternoon in the apartment with his dildo was an incredible turn-on.

Gripping his cock more firmly, Heero provided himself with an extremely detailed picture of Duo pleasuring himself with the silicone toy. Softly moaning as he worked the slick pre-cum over it's swollen head, Heero began thrusting his hips upward into the smooth channel of his warm hand; the vision behind his eyes of Duo's face twisted in ecstasy as he impaled himself, bringing him to climax within a matter of seconds. Mouth open and head thrown back, Heero gasped and mouthed Duo's name as he reached his peak. The thick warmth erupted from his cock to cover his hand and chest and his body continued to jerk violently long after he had emptied himself. He reached over and grabbed several tissues, cleaning himself off before reclining back down onto the couch; sated and ready for sleep.


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 37

Duo's last night in California was a Friday night and Heero had arranged to leave the office early so they could enjoy a nice dinner out. Unlocking the door to his apartment at 3:30, Heero found the small kitchen table already set for two; the smell of something wonderful filling the room. Smiling as the aroma continued to assault him, Heero called out. "Duo?"

Checking around the apartment, yet finding Duo was nowhere in sight, Heero loosened his tie made his way into his bedroom. He quickly removed his suit, replacing it with his infinitely more comfortable running shorts and t-shirt. Shivering slightly, he turned the air conditioner off and opened several windows, much preferring the warm air to the artificial chill.

Returning to the kitchen, Heero peeked into the oven and several of the pots that were on the stovetop. He smiled as he did so; Duo was preparing his favorite meal. Hearing the lock on the front door to click open, Heero peered over at it to find Duo making his way inside, both of his arms filled with packages. "You're back."

Duo smiled, Heero's voice taking him by surprise. "You're home early."

Hurrying over to the open doorway, Heero took several of the packages from Duo and brought them into the kitchen with Duo not far behind.

"I guess my surprise is spoiled." Duo commented, setting the bags down onto the table.

"So is mine. I came home early so we could go out to dinner." Heero smiled.

"We can go out if you want to." Duo replied looking over at Heero.

"After you went through all this trouble?" Heero shook his head and made his way over to Duo. "And besides, it smells absolutely wonderful."

"I remembered it was your favorite and I thought it would be nice to spend my last night here.... well.. here." he replied tentatively. "Got some wine too." he added, reaching into one of the bags.

"Sounds perfect, Duo. How long until dinner is ready?"

Duo looked over at the clock on the kitchen wall. "Another hour and a half. I wasn't expecting you home till then."

Taking the bottle from Duo's hand, Heero reached into the drawer and removed the corkscrew. "How about a glass of wine then?

Duo nodded and reached into the cabinet, retrieving two glasses.

Heero filled each of the stemmed glasses halfway with the deep red wine. "Do you want to go out somewhere later? After dinner?" Heero asked, handing one of them to Duo.

Duo shook his head as he took a sip and swallowed. "I thought we could just relax and maybe watch some television tonight. I'm kinda beat from all the sightseeing and stuff we did this week. It's been great, Heero." Duo smiled.

"I've enjoyed it as well." Heero returned as he wandered into the living room. Sitting on the edge of the sofa, Heero looked over at Duo. "Nice choice of wines by the way." he smiled holding the glass up toward his friend.

"Thanks." Duo replied, joining Heero on the couch.

Heero looked over to where Duo sat, quietly staring into his wine glass.

"Duo?" Heero asked hesitantly.


"Is something wrong?"

Duo shook his head.

"You know that I can tell when you're lying."

Duo looked up at Heero and forced a smile. "I'm fine."

Setting his glass down on the table, Heero reached forward to take Duo's hand, "If it makes you feel any better. I don't want you to leave either," he told him softly.

Duo's eyes searched Heero's and for a moment he wondered when he'd become so transparent. "Shows that much, huh?" he smiled, this time more genuine, though tinged with sadness.

"Uh-huh." Heero winked, this time Duo returning him a full-fledged grin.

"More wine?" Duo asked noting the two empty glasses on the coffee table.

Heero nodded as his eyes followed Duo's retreat into the kitchen. It was a typically warm day, yet Duo was once again dressed in pants and a long sleeved shirt. Heero figured that this was as good a time as any to confront Duo about what he had seen shortly after his arrival.

"Aren't you warm?" Heero asked. "I turned off the air conditioner when I got home. I hope you don't mind."

Duo had indeed noticed the apartment was warm. "No. I'm fine." Duo smiled, returning to the living room with glasses in hand. Handing one to Heero, he sat, his fingers moving nervously around the stem of his wine glass.

"The scars don't bother me, Duo." Heero spoke, not looking toward him.

Duo gasped and his head turned sharply to look at his friend.

Hearing the sound Heero turned his head to look over at Duo, immediately answering the question he read in his eyes. "I saw them after you first arrived... while you were sleeping."

Duo lowered his head.

"You can't hide them forever, you know." Heero told him softly, his hand gently stroking Duo's back.

Duo stood. "Why not?" he replied in anger, not looking at Heero.


"Please, Heero.... I'm embarrassed enough as it is." he replied, returning to the kitchen.

Heero frowned and waited several minutes before following Duo into the small room.

Duo was moving around the kitchen, busying himself with last minute preparations for dinner.

"Duo? What are you embarrassed about?" Heero asked, taking him by the wrist.

Duo looked up at Heero, "You wouldn't be asking me that if you'd gotten a good look at them." Duo replied, rolling up his sleeve and extending his arm toward Heero.

Heero looked down at the scars on Duo's lower arm, his face revealing his shock.

Duo pushed the fabric of his shirt back down over his arm in disgust, "See?"

Heero was speechless for a moment and quickly attempted to think of the right thing to say or do. He needed to let Duo know that he didn't find his actions or scars repulsive. The longer his silence, the greater chance there was of Duo interpreting his reaction as negative.

Heero made his way over to stand behind Duo and wrapped his arms around him, holding him tighter as he felt his body begin to tremble. "It's okay, Duo... really..... it is." He held him that way until he felt Duo's body relax sufficiently in his embrace. "Is there anything you want to talk about?"

"No. I'm okay, Heero." Duo replied, his back still toward his friend as Heero's arms tightened around his waist. "I'm a bit relieved in fact."

"Good. Want to go get changed now?" he asked softly. Placing one hand on each of the young man's shoulders, Heero turned Duo to face him.

Duo nodded. "Thank you, Heero... for understanding. I was worried about how you might react."

"Did you think that it would make me care any less about you?" Heero asked. His tone reflected the hurt he felt by Duo's insinuation.

"I don't know. Does it, Heero?"

Heero shook his head from side to side as he looked at Duo, "No. Of course it doesn't, Duo. Nothing could."

"I'm glad to hear that, Heero. Next problem." Duo smiled. "I didn't bring any shorts."

"I have some that may fit you... top drawer." Heero smiled toward him.

"Not spandex I hope." Duo commented dryly making his way into Heero's bedroom, leaving Heero smiling in the center of the room.

Returning several minutes later in shorts and a sleeveless t-shirt, Duo sat on the couch.

"Heero?" he called into the kitchen.


"I think we're gonna need some more wine." Duo replied, emptying the contents of the bottle into their two glasses.


Dinner had been thoroughly enjoyable and Heero was once again impressed by Duo's hidden talent. Duo seemed to be more relaxed tonight and Heero attributed it to the earlier revelation of the scars and his acceptance of them. He could certainly understand Duo's reluctance in bringing his actions out into the open; he found himself cringing inwardly several times as he glanced down at them during dinner.

Heero watched as Duo sat quietly on the other end of the couch. It was obvious that he was fighting to stay awake as his eyes closed briefly every few minutes. "Duo? Why don't you go lie down?" Heero asked. "I'll wake you up in an hour or two."

Duo yawned and curled up on the couch to face the television with his head resting on Heero's lap. "This okay?" he asked, smiling as he turned to look up at Heero.

"Course." Heero smiled, his hand coming to rest on Duo's upper arm.

Heero focused his attention back on the movie they were watching and tried to ignore how distracting having Duo's head in his lap was. Fortunately, the braided young man had some mercy on him; resting his head closer to his knees rather than further up his thighs.


Barely five minutes had passed when the soft even sounds of Duo's breath let Heero know that he had already succumbed to sleep. Heero took the opportunity to admire the alluring body laid out before him. Duo's legs were slightly parted with one bent up a bit at the knee as it rested on the back of the couch.. His arm right lay lightly draped across his chest, while the left curled upward, ending in a loose fist nuzzled securely under his chin. The corners of his mouth turned upward at the vision and he let his eyes wash once again over the length of Duo's body, eyebrows furrowing as he focused on the deep red scars that covered Duo's lower arm.

They were disturbing, he couldn't deny it, nor could Duo. Heero brought his fingertip down to touch what was clearly the oldest of the markings. // Oh Duo // Mindful not to disturb his slumber, Heero swallowed the huge lump that had formed in his throat and he gently began to run his finger over them; tracing each of the five letters of his name that Duo had carefully carved into his skin.

Reclining his head back against the sofa, Heero closed his eyes tightly and let his tears fall.


It was almost an hour before Duo began to stir.

Heero had shifted his position on the couch not too long after Duo had fallen asleep as gravity too had become his enemy. The angle of his legs had caused the sleeping figure's head to slowly slide up his thighs, coming to rest dangerously close to where the proof of his desire for Duo had unwillingly made itself known.

Duo turned his head toward Heero and opened his eyes to look up at him. "Mmmmm......" he stretched "Nice cat nap." He smiled.

"Feel better?" Heero asked.

Duo nodded. He could feel the muscles of Heero's thighs tensing beneath him as he stretched his legs. "Sorry, Heero." he offered, sitting up.

"I'm fine." Heero commented as he stood. "Want something to drink?"


Heero nodded and made his way into the kitchen. "Sure you don't want me to make some coffee?"

Duo looked across the room at the clock and noting it was only 9:30, called back. "Okay, coffee sounds great."

Heero returned several minutes later. "Should be ready shortly." he informed him, seating himself back down on the end of the couch.

Duo yawned again. "Not decaf I hope." he responded, smiling at Heero.

"Nope. Don't want you falling asleep again on your last night here."

"Awwww...." Duo replied, lying his head back down on Heero's lap, "But you make such a comfy pillow."

Heero looked down at Duo, noting he was not smiling despite the levity his words. There was an unfamiliar look in his eyes as they met Heero's and he studied it for a moment before questioning Duo. "Now?" he asked softly. He hoped he had not misread the long awaited signal.

Duo smiled and nodded.

Slowly bending forward, Heero brought the palm of his hand to caress the side of Duo's face leaving his lips hovering just above those beneath him. "Duo..." he whispered, closing the gap between their mouths.

Duo let out a low moan as Heero's mouth covered his own and he parted his lips as Heero's tongue pressed against them softly seeking entry. Slipping his tongue past Duo's lips sent a shiver throughout Heero's body and he lifted Duo's upper torso up off the couch and drew him fully into his arms.

Answering the passion in Heero's kiss, Duo wrapped his arms around Heero's neck and pulled him closer still, moaning once again as his tongue set out to explore the wet warmth of Heero's mouth. Duo had to know that he was driving Heero crazy as he continued his assault on the cobalt-eyed young man's mouth. He forcibly pushed Duo back and gasped for air. "That was a helluva first kiss." Heero whispered breathlessly.

"More." Duo panted as he moved forward, pressing his mouth firmly against Heero's.

Heero moaned in response as Duo thrust his tongue back inside his mouth. More indeed, he thought, as he sought to ravage Duo's mouth in return. They had years to make up for and Heero didn't plan on stopping until one or both of them passed out from sheer lack of oxygen.

Heero's hands moved with ease up over Duo's shoulders and worked their way slowly down his back before sliding them up under his shirt. The feel of Duo's smooth bare skin beneath his fingers coaxed him into a more urgent touch and his hands began to roam over every inch of his upper body.

Duo let out a low moan as he pulled back from the kiss and taking Heero's hand in his, guided them both into the waistband of his shorts. "Please...." he whispered as he gently wrapped the two around his erection and began stroking its length.

Heero nodded and drew Duo closer to him, letting Duo work their hands over his stiffness. He could feel his own arousal growing painfully hard as Duo began moaning and thrusting his hips upward.

"Kiss me." he whispered, opening his mouth as Heero bent forward to oblige him. Roughly pushing his tongue into its waiting counterpart, Duo increased the pace of their two hands, their tongues quickening as well. Heero pulled back from the kiss as he felt Duo's arousal begin to twitch in his hand. "Look at me, Duo." he whispered.

Duo's dark amethyst eyes revealed his longing and lust as his eyelids slowly rose stare up at Heero. His mouth fell open as his back arched up off the couch and his body yielded to the torment. "Nnnn.... Heero..." he groaned, removing his hand, leaving Heero to drive him over the edge. Duo cried out as he released the first of his seed into Heero's hand, his hips thrusting into the tight fist that surrounded him.

Heero watched in awe as Duo's body shuddered as he came and he continued pleasuring him, not releasing his grip on Duo's member until it had fully softened in his hand.

Duo smiled up at Heero. "Mmm....that was nice."

"You looked incredible, Duo." Heero moaned, kissing Duo again as his arms pulled him closer.

Duo broke the kiss and smiled up at Heero before crawling off the couch to kneel on the floor in front of Heero. Watching his reactions, Duo brought his hand up to lightly tease the tip of Heero's arousal through the fabric of his shorts, smiling as Heero moaned and rested his head back against the sofa. Duo reached for the elastic band of the cotton shorts and Heero looked down at him in surprise. "Let me, Heero." He whispered, pulling the fabric down over his erection. "Take them off please?" he asked softly. "I want to see all of you."

Heero lifted his hips up off the couch as he watched Duo slide his shorts down and off, tossing them aside. Moaning as he looked up at the thick arousal, Duo pushed Heero's thighs further apart. "I cannot wait to taste you......" he whispered as he moved to kneel between his open legs.

Heero watched as Duo moved forward to lick the glistening tip of his cock before taking him fully into his mouth. He let out a gasp as he was suddenly enveloped in its warmth. "Duo..."

His eyes never left Duo's as his he sucked his length. The feeling was incredible, as was the view he had of Duo's head situated between his legs and he wanted more. Heero moaned and began gentle thrusts upward, urging Duo to increase his movement. Sliding his hands beneath him, Duo took hold of his Heero's bottom. "Mmm..... that's it... moan for me, Heero." Duo whispered, pushing upward to drive Heero's stiffness further into his mouth. "Nnnn... Duo.." Duo's tongue swirled over the swollen head, sucking it firmly before taking his full length back into his mouth.

"Oh, God.. Duo.... that's not all I'm gonna do." Heero groaned. That was all the warning he had before Heero buried his hands in his hair and thrust his hips upward to fill his all too eager mouth. "Ugh....Yes... DUO!" Duo could feel his own arousal spring back to life as he watched Heero reach orgasm. The sight was far more erotic than he could have imagined and he continued caressing Heero's dwindling erection with his mouth until the last of the tremors had passed through him.

Rising to his knees, Duo climbed up onto the couch to straddle Heero's hips. Brushing the dampened his hair from his lover's eyes, Duo bent forward to kiss him lightly. "This is what you taste like." he whispered, plunging his tongue into Heero's mouth. Heero moaned and strained his neck upward to deepen the kiss.

Both of Heero's hand trailed down the length of Duo's spine as they kissed; his fingers spreading wide against the muscles of his upper back to pull Duo closer. "I want to taste you as well." he whispered as his hands trailed downward to settle firmly on Duo's hips.

Turning to the side, Heero moved forward and let Duo's upper body come to rest on the couch beside him, easily sliding his cotton shorts just below his knees. "You're as perfect as I'd imagined." he spoke softly as he shifted backward and bent down, licking the slickness from the tip of Duo's cock.

Heero's tongue teased the wet slit, sucking lightly at it before he dove downward, taking every last inch of Duo's hardened shaft into his mouth. "Jeezus, Heero..." he cried out, "Nnnn.... what are you doing to me?" Heero smiled as he continued sucking up and down his length, easily accepting Duo's increased thrusts. Soon lost in the passionate moans and writhing hips of his lover, Heero raced to bring Duo to completion. Using both hands to separate his long legs, Heero reached between them and began rubbing his open palm over the hardened sac, the added stimulation sending his lover over the edge. Duo screamed out Heero's name and thrust his hips upward once more to bury himself deep within Heero's mouth. "Oh.... yes.... God..... Heero!!!" he moaned, holding Heero's head motionless as he climaxed. Heero groaned and his lips tightened around the base of Duo's cock, savoring each hot stream as he tasted him for the first time.

Heero brought himself to a seated position and looked down at the still shuddering body of his new lover, gently rubbing his inner thigh. "I'd have to say that orgasm agrees with you." he announced, smiling as Duo opened his eyes. Violet eyes dark with lust peered out from under the sweat soaked hair that now covered his face and his chest still rose and fell with uneven breaths. A sultry smile formed on his pouty lips as he gazed up at Heero causing a shiver to run down his spine and he let out a small moan; Duo looked absolutely breathtaking.


Sliding Duo's shorts back up, Heero stood to cover his sleepy form. He thought it odd that throughout the entire week Duo had been there, he barely wore shoes. Looking down at his barefooted lover, Heero couldn't help but notice what incredibly sexy feet Duo had. Shaking off the thought, Heero lay the light blanket over him and headed off to his bedroom.


Waking sometime later, Duo rolled over, nearly falling off the couch. Allowing himself several seconds to get his bearings, he rose and headed into Heero's bedroom, quietly lying down beside him. Feeling the movement on the other side of the bed, Heero sat on the edge of the bed before rising to his feet to exit the room.



"Please stay...."


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 38

Saturday morning found the two rushing around the apartment in an effort to make Duo's 12 noon flight. Neither one had thought to set the alarm the night before as both were generally early risers; neither one took into account that they had stayed up half the night.

Having made their way to the departure gate with only 20 minutes to spare, Heero cornered his lover and the two said their good byes.

"Call me?" Duo asked, wrapping his arms around Heero's neck.

Nodding, Heero tightened his grasp on Duo's waist. "You can count on it." he answered, kissing him gently on the lips.

"I'm gonna miss that." Duo smiled at him, stealing another quick kiss. "Gonna miss you."

"Mmm... same here. When are you going back to work?"

"Not sure. I'll leave the link open in any case." he winked.

"Good. Come back in two weeks? For the weekend?" Heero asked.

"Love to. I gotta go... they're calling my flight." he sighed. "See you in two weeks."

Taking Duo's hand in his, he nodded and the two walked toward the gate in silence. Pausing to show his ticket to the agent, Duo turned back to look at Heero then continued onto the boarding ramp, the two holding tightly onto one anothers hands until the distance between them broke their grasp.


Duo slept the last several hours of the flight home, arriving well rested back in New York six hours later. Calling out as he entered the foyer and receiving no response, he headed upstairs to his room, smiling as he approached the door and read the note that had been taped to it.

|| We'll be back at 5:00. There's lasagna in the fridge. Hope you had a good time. Be prepared to talk! ||

He shook his head and laughed as he crumpled it before proceeding into his room. Setting his bag down inside the room's entrance, Duo headed into the bathroom, releasing his braid as he went. He was nearly done drying his hair when he heard the front open. Dressing quickly, he left his hair unbound and made his way downstairs to greet his friends.


There was no need for Duo to inform Trowa, Quatre and Wufei what had taken place during his absence, his cheerful mood made it quite obvious. They did not ask and he offered no information, instead choosing to focus on what he had spent a good portion of the last few hours thinking about.

He stood and addressed the small blonde. "Quatre, it's time you and I sat down and had a long talk." Trowa and Wufei politely excused themselves leaving the two alone in the den. Duo stood in the center of the room and motioned for Quatre to sit. Quietly seating himself on the sofa, he looked up at Duo.

"The first thing I want to make clear, Quatre, is that I understand that you did what you did out of concern for my well-being... and I appreciate that. What Heero did after the accident was wrong..... really wrong." he began, "What I don't understand, and I've already talked with Heero about this, is why neither one of you sought to straighten the whole mess out before it got out of hand." Pausing, he looked down at Quatre. "Hmm? What were the two of you thinking?"

Quatre looked up at him. "I don't know, Duo. I knew something was wrong from the very start. Heero was acting... irrationally. At first, we thought it was because of the stress he was under while he took care of you. But it was more than that." he paused, looking up at Duo. "I guess one of us should have come right out and asked him what was going on. He should have said something, Duo, it would have made everything so much easier on all of us. I'm not even sure how he kept his feelings a secret for all those years... or why he would even want to." The blonde shook his head in disbelief.

"Yeah, well that is a different story, Quatre. I wish I had figured it own sooner myself. A lot of this could have been avoided." Duo lowered his head for a moment before looking over at Quatre, his tone more serious. "Which brings me to the next issue we need to discuss."

Quatre shook his head and his voice softened as he addressed his friend. "Duo.."

"You knew perfectly well that what had happened between me and Heero was killing me. You knew how miserable I was. How could you just let me suffer like that... it boggles my mind.... but that's not even the point, Quatre. It's not your place or anyone else's to decide what is best for me. Not then, not now and not ever." Duo shook his head. "What gives you the right to take away my choices? What the hell goes on in that little head of yours, Quatre?" he asked bitterly.

Quatre lowered his head. Duo had every reason to be angered by his actions. He looked up at Duo who was now standing over him with his hands on his hips as he waited impatiently for a response. "Well?" Duo demanded.

He looked up at him, knowing Duo deserved some sort of explanation, knowing nothing he could say would be adequate; there was no excuse for his behavior. "Whatever I say, Duo, can never be enough. I can never make it right... no matter what I say... or what I do. I'm sorry, Duo..."

Duo studied Quatre for a moment, the blonde's eyes were filled with tears as he spoke and he didn't doubt his friend's sincerity, but it wasn't enough. "Sorry isn't going to cut it, Quatre. You owe me an explanation of some kind. I deserve at least that."

The blonde nodded. "When Heero contacted you that day when I was in your office, I remembered what you had done over the weekend... when you started clearing the stuff out of his room. I thought that you were making progress.... in finally forgetting him." he finished in a barely audible tone.

"You thought?" Duo asked accusingly. "You should have known better, Quatre. You of all people! And when did you realize that you thought wrong?"

"Six weeks later."

"Six weeks.... six goddamn weeks, Quatre!!" Duo shook his head. "Is that why you stayed home with me.. out of guilt?"

Quatre nodded. "That is when I figured out what you had been doing."

Duo approached Quatre and rolled up his sleeve, "You mean this?" he asked, offering Quatre a close up view of his forearm.

The blonde winced as he looked down at Duo's scars and turned his head away. "Yes."

Duo crossed the room and sat in the chair by the window, looking out into the side yard as he reflected on everything the two had said.

"I didn't realize that it had affected you so badly..." Quatre began.

Duo stood, eyes dangerously narrowing his as he looked at the Arabian. "YOU STILL DON'T GET IT, DO YOU!??!" he screamed. "It has nothing to DO with how it affected me, Quatre!!! It has to do with YOU and the fact that you need to mind your own goddamn business!!" he finished, storming out of the room.

Quatre let out a loud sigh and reclined back onto the sofa.


There was very little spoken between the two over the next several hours. Quatre made no attempt to side step Duo's anger. He waited until later that evening hoping that Duo had calmed down before he sought him out.

"Duo, it's Quatre. May I come in?"

"Door's open."

The braided young man lie on his stomach in the center of his bed reading, not turning to acknowledge the blonde's entry into the room or even as he addressed him. "I'm sorry, Duo. I do understand. I was totally out of line. I had no right to keep it from you... regardless. It won't happen again... I promise. Can you forgive me?"

Duo rolled over onto his side and looked up. "Do you agree that I'm old enough and quite capable of making my own decisions, Quatre? Cause that's what this is all about. You may not like them and they may be bad decisions, but they are my decisions... and I'll deal with whatever consequences they cause."

The blonde nodded and stepped back as Duo moved to sit on the edge of the bed. "You are perfectly capable, Duo. I never meant to imply that you are not."

Duo stood, glaring at the blonde before turning away. "That is exactly what you did, Quatre."

Quatre's mouth moved to speak when Duo turned suddenly to face him; thinking better of it as he met with the icy glare.

Startled, Quatre took a step back then another when he heard the frozen tones of Duo's voice. "You will NEVER do it again."


Monday and Tuesday found Duo alone in the house; not only bored, but lonely as well. It was a bad combination and by Wednesday afternoon he decided it was time to return to work. By Wednesday evening, the tension caused by the emotional turmoil between Duo and Quatre had subsided.

The following morning Quatre, Trowa and Wufei noted Duo's unusually short-temper began flaring at lesser intervals; easily reading into their friends irritability and unrest. By Friday morning, Quatre had come up with a plan.


It was 4:30 p.m. PST and Quatre Raberba Winner found himself nervously pacing the cavernous hallway of the huge apartment building. It seemed like a good idea last night and even this morning as he readied his private jet, but he was now showing signs of doubt. Startled by the ding of the elevator signaling it's arrival, Quatre turned toward it and took a deep breath as the occupant emerged.

"Hello, Heero."


Heero was startled by the greeting as he stepped out into the hall. "Quatre." he returned, heading toward the blonde.

"I hope you don't mind my just showing up like this." he began. Bending down, Quatre picked up the box at his feet, offering it to Heero. "You left this in your room.... I thought you might want it."

Heero eyed Quatre for a moment. "You came all the way here to bring me this?"

The blonde looked up at his long time friend. "I think it's about time you and I sat down and talked, Heero... for Duo's sake."

"Hai. Come in, Quatre."


Duo had succeeded in laying a decent foundation for the reparations that needed to be made between his four freinds, making the confrontation between the two that much easier.

"I was quite surprised... rather, I should say shocked when Duo told me of your feelings for him." Quatre began. "I can't even imagine how you were able to hide them for all those years... or even why you chose to.... it doesn't matter now....and it wouldn't have mattered then. What you did was wrong, Heero... no matter what your reasons were."

The blonde sat across the table from Heero, the young man seemingly unaffected by his words. "Heero?"

Snapping out of thought, Heero nodded. "It was a extremely poor decision. I've already apologized to Duo, but you are also due an apology."

"No, Heero. If Duo has seen fit to forgive you, I have no right to demand an explanation or an apology from you. In fact, it is I that owe you an apology."

"The link?"

"Yes. I exercised poor judgment as well, extremely poor." The blonde stood and faced his friend. "I'm sorry, Heero, dreadfully sorry. I had no right..... and what it did to Duo." Quatre covered his mouth. "Did you see them, Heero? The scars?" he asked softly.

Heero rose. "Hai."

There was an extended period of silence as the two gave the events of the past years their deserved reflection. The effects both of their actions had on Duo were devastating; the ripple effects much less stunning, but significant nonetheless.

"Duo misses you, Heero. That's why I'm here.... Can you come back for the weekend? I thought it would be a nice surprise."

Heero shook his head. "I can't, Quatre, I have a project due on Monday. That is why I asked Duo to come back next weekend instead of this weekend. I'm sorry."

"You can work on the plane. That will be 5 hours going and 5 hours coming back." He began before looking up at Heero. "I can fly you back on Sunday Morning... first thing. Please, Heero?


It was nearly 2 a.m. EST when Quatre and Heero arrived back at the house in New York. Trowa and Wufei had been unsuccessful in their attempts to persuade Duo to stay up.

The four talked quietly for an hour inside the large den; an abbreviated version of the long delayed discussion that needed to pass between them. While there was tomorrow, the three were relatively certain that Duo would be monopolizing most of Heero's time. They had managed to work through the major issues, certain their long-standing relationship would survive the lesser, unaddressed concerns.


Despite the fact that he had little more than 3 hours sleep, Heero rose precisely at 6 a.m. Quickly showering, he set up his laptop and proceeded to work while he waited for the rest of the house to awaken.

It was several hours before he heard music coming from Duo's room. With the knowledge that he was most likely readying himself for breakfast, Heero shut down his computer and stood quietly inside the open doorway of his room. He couldn't wait to see the statement on Duo's face.

Still groggy, Duo exited his room and headed for the kitchen.

Heero smiled as Duo walked right past his room, allowing him to only take a few steps more before he spoke. "I don't even get a 'good morning' ?"

Duo's eyes opened wide at hearing Heero's voice and he stood frozen in his tracks for just a second before spinning around to face his grinning lover. "Heero!! What? When?... HI!!!!!"

Heero stepped out into the hallway. "Quatre came and got me last night... something about you missing me."

"Mmmm... He was right, I missed you a lot."

"How about a proper welcome then." he asked, advancing on his smiling lover. It was only a matter of seconds before Duo found himself backed up against the wall with Heero's body pressed tightly against his. "I've missed you as well." he whispered, bringing his mouth down to cover Duo's as his arms drew him closer, deepening the kiss. The two groaned at the rising intensity of the kiss and the glorious feel of their hips against one another.

Heero stepped back several minutes later. "Mmmm..... We should join everyone for breakfast before I end up ravishing you right here in the hall."

"I might just have let you too." he winked, following Heero downstairs.


Quatre smiled as the two entered the kitchen. "I see you found your surprise."

"Actually, my surprise found me." Duo smiled, "Thanks, Quatre.... Heero told me what you did. I don't know what to say..."

"Don't mention it, Duo. It was the least I could do."

Duo seated himself next to Wufei. "Now I understand why you and Tro tried to keep me up last night." he shook his head. "I should have listened to you."

"Everything worked out just fine, Maxwell. The four of us got a chance to talk last night.. I think we've pretty much settled everything."

Heero nodded and took a seat at the head of the table, giving him a full view of the four young men seated before him. He studied them in silence for a time as they engaged one another in conversation and shared their morning meal. This, Heero recognized was what he missed more than anything in the past year... he wondered how he had managed to survive without it.


The next several hours were spent as a group, the five former pilots doing little more than hanging out in the den and catching up.

"I made dinner reservations for 5:00." Quatre began, turning toward Duo. "The four of us were up quite late last night. I think it's going to be an early night. At least I know it will be for me." he smiled. "How are you hanging in there, Heero?"

"Considering I had 3 hours of sleep, I'd say pretty well. As a matter of fact..." he started as he rose from the couch. "...I think I'm going to lie down for a few hours before we go out to dinner." Looking down at his watch, he turned toward Duo, "Wake me up at 4?"

Duo looked up at Heero and smiled, nodding. "Sure thing. Want me to tuck you in too?" he winked.

Heero's cheeks warmed and he was certain he was blushing, but nevertheless pulled a grinning Duo to his feet and took him by the hand as he prepared to exit the room.

Duo waved from the doorway as he looked back at the remaining three. "See you guys later."

Once inside his room, Heero closed the door and shook his head at his smirking lover. "You are very naughty, Duo."

"I didn't see you refusing my offer." Duo purred taking one step closer to Heero.

"Now why on earth would I do a thing like that?" he returned, reaching behind Duo to lock the bedroom door. "Hmmm?" he asked seductively.

"Dunno.... glad you didn't though. I don't think I could have waited until 4:00." Duo returned, shivering as he closed the gap between them.

"Waited for what, Duo?" Heero whispered as his arms surrounded his violet-eyed lover, kissing him gently on the lips. Duo took in a sharp breath as Heero's hands moved downward over his back to settle firmly on his bottom for a moment before shifting his hips so their arousals met. "For that?" Heero asked. He could feel Duo go limp in his arms, his own body reeling from the effects of the suggestive touch.

"Don't tease me, Heero." Duo softly begged, "Please......."

Guiding Duo to stand beside the bed, Heero brought himself to his knees in front of him and reached up to unfasten his jeans. "Teasing you is the last thing on my mind, koi."


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 39

The week in between their visits had fortunately passed quickly. Duo had made the decision shortly after Heero's departure on Sunday morning to change his plans to allow the two more time to be together on his upcoming trip. Bag packed and ready as he left for the office on Friday morning, Duo used the five hour flight to catch up on some much needed sleep, anxious to surprise Heero with his early arrival.


Exiting the elevator on the 4th floor, Duo dug into his pocket and retreived his key to the apartment, glad Heero had not asked for it back after his last visit. Pausing slightly outside the door as he heard coming voices from inside, Duo adjusted the strap on his overnight bag to sit further up on his shoulder and unlocked the door. Holding onto the doorknob, he pushed the door open, freezing at what he saw inside.

Heero looked up at the entrance to his apartment as the door swung open, shocked to find Duo standing there. Easily reading the statement on Duo's face, Heero turned toward the young man seated beside him then looked back up at Duo who remained motionless in the entryway.

Fumbling to remove his key from the lock, Duo pulled the door closed and ran down the hallway in search of an exit. Throwing the door to the stairway open, he entered and quickly made his way down the first flight of stairs.

Heero set his wine glass down on the coffee table and quickly rose from his place on the couch, politely excusing himself from his guest. "I'm sorry." he began, "I'll be right back."

Running out of the apartment and through the hall, Heero could see no sign of Duo; the sound of a slamming door soon giving him the necessary clue to his whereabouts. Entering the stairwell, he heard the thunderous sound of Duo descending the steps. "Duo!" he called out, racing down the steps two by two after him. "DUO...... STOP!"

Finally catching up with him on the 2nd floor landing, Heero reached out to grasp his wrist, holding him tightly as Duo struggled to release himself from the grip. "Let go of me, Heero." he choked out. The pain in his voice was obvious and Heero turned Duo to face him. "What is the matter, Duo? Why were you running away?" Heero asked, panting from exertion.

Duo shook his head and leaned against the wall. "I shouldn't have just shown up unannounced. I'm sorry, Heero... I should have called first.. you had company and all." he explained tearfully, lowering his head as the vision of the two seated beside one another on the couch flashed through his mind. "I had no right to think that you and I.."

Heero smiled and let out a loud chuckle, his inappropriate actions both confusing and angering Duo. "What the hell is so damn funny, Heero?" he asked sharply.

"Sit down." Heero smiled warmly. Placing his hands on Duo's shoulders, he turned him toward the stairs and eased him down to sit on the bottom step, crouching down on the landing in front of him. "I think I understand what this is all about." Heero started, looking up at Duo. "Look at me, Duo."

Duo raised his head and looked into Heero's eyes, they were soft and filled with tenderness... Duo was thoroughly confused.

"You are mistaken." he began, taking both of Duo's hands in his. "Devon is a friend of mine from the office. He and his fiance came over for dinner this evening. She was in the bathroom when you arrived." he explained. "Is that what you were thinking? That Devon and I....?"

"Yeah." He replied mournfully, a smile soon forming as he lifted his head and looked at Heero.

Heero shook his head. "It seems we still have a problem with communication." he winked, pulling him to stand. "There is no one else, Duo. There never has been and there never will be. Do you understand now?" he asked softly as he took Duo into his arms.

Duo nodded and Heero kissed him gently before taking a step back. "Good, now lets go back upstairs. I have some guests that are dying to meet you."


They entered the apartment hand in hand and Heero quickly relieved Duo of his overnight bag as they stepped inside, setting it beside the door. Guiding Duo across the room toward the two seated on the couch, Heero proceeded to made his introductions. "Duo, I'd like you to meet Devon and his finacee, Emory."

Duo looked nervously over at the couple, slightly embarrassed by his earlier behavior. "Hi. Nice to meet you." he smiled, shaking both their hands as they rose from the couch.

Heero released Duo's hand and moved to stand behind him. "And this is Duo." he smiled toward his friends, wrapping his arms posessively around Duo's waist.

"He talks about you all the time, you know." Devon offered, starting a flow of conversation amongst the them.


The four shared a glass of wine and talked for about an hour before the couple excused themselves, thanking Heero for his hospitality. "By the way, Heero... he is indeed beautiful." Emory commented with a wink as they exited the apartment, causing both Heero and Duo to blush slightly.

The two waited in the hallway, until Devon and Emory had made their way into the elevator, calling their final good byes over the distance. The elevator doors closed and Duo wasted no time pulling Heero back inside the apartment, swiftly closing the door behind them.


Once inside, the two stood several feet apart for a minute, remaining still and silent before Duo leaned back against the door, tensing under the scrutiny of his lover's cobalt stare. "What, Heero?" he asked, puzzled by Heero's stare.

"Do you have any idea of how much I love you?" Heero asked in almost a whisper. The words seemed wholly inadequate and he leaned forward to brush his lips against Duo's, letting his mouth express the passion his words could not. Their bodies shuddered as Heero pressed himself against his beautiful lover, soon becoming lost in the sensual dance their two tongues engaged in. Abandoning his mouth, Heero continued downward, softly kissing and licking his neck before moving onto his earlobe, nibbling on the tender skin. "Heero.." Duo moaned as his mouth traveled over every inch of his exposed flesh.

Heero's breath was heavy as he paused and stood back to look at Duo. His amethyst eyes were drowning in the same lust as Heero's and he moved forward again. "Let me show you.." he whispered, biting at Duo's lower lip. Slipping his hands up underneath Duo's shirt, he caressed the smooth bare flesh letting his splayed fingers dance over the spanse of his back; shifting himself to rub their arousals against one another.

"Oh God, Heero." Duo whispered. "What are you trying to do to me?"

"Do you want me to stop?" he whispered, slipping his tongue in between his lover's parted lips. "No." Duo replied in a low moan, recommencing their kiss. Taking Duo by the hand, Heero led him into his bedroom, relinquishing his grasp as they approached the bed.

Taking several steps back, Heero began to removing each article of his clothing; slowing his undress to a tease as he watched the pleasure present itself in Duo's statement; darkened violet eyes traveling hungrily over each patch of newly revealed flesh. Duo's arousal twitched as the last barrier of cloth fell away and Heero stood in splendor before him. "Mmm... Heero.." he moaned, pulling him forward and into his embrace. "... your body is incredible." he whispered, letting his hands roam over the hardened muscles of Heero's shoulders and upper back. Sliding them downward to the base of his spine, he pulled him closer. "I've dreamt of touching you like this... and of you touching me...." came the soft whisper into Heero's ear.

Easing himself from Heero's arms, Duo stepped back and with both hands reached for the hem of his shirt, easily bringing it up over his head with his arms raised high to let his braid slip free of it as well. Dropping it to the floor, he unfastened his jeans and looked up at Heero, pleased to find his eyes riveted to each of his purposefully seductive moves. Hooking his thumbs into the opened waistband of his jeans, he shifted his hips from side to side, pushing the thick fabric slowly down his thighs. Stepping out of them as they fell to gather at his feet, he looked up at his rapt lover. "I'm all yours, Heero."

Taking a moment to devour the vision of his naked and aroused lover, Heero sat down on the edge of the mattress and beckoned him to join him. "Mmmmm... Duo. Come here." Rising to his knees in the center of the bed, he watched as Duo reached behind himself for the end of his braid, removing the tie to free his hair. He extended his hand as Duo climbed up onto the bed to kneel front of him. "You know what is about to happen here. Do you want it to?" he whispered. "Do you want me?"

"Hell yes.." he moaned, pressing his lips tightly against Heero's before plunging his tongue deep inside his mouth. Surrounding Duo's waist with both of his arms, Heero brought their bodies flush against one another. Groaning at the contact, he eased Duo back down onto the bed, quickly abandoning his mouth to travel downward, kissing the soft skin of his neck and collarbone. Shifting positions he began to tease each of his hardened nipples and the darkened skin that surrounded them. Duo moaned as Heero continued sucking, his fingers rolling one stiffened nub as his mouth alternated between the two. "Please, Heero..." he whispered, burying his hands in the thick dark hair to guide his lover down to where he wanted him. "Nnnn.... I need you...." Duo's longing was clear, as was his own growing desire and Heero reached over and into the nightstand drawer to remove the tube of lube.

Spreading Duo's legs wide with one hand on each of the inside of his thighs, Heero settled in between them and dropped his hand down to wet Duo's entrance with his lube-slickened fingers. Propping himself up on both elbows to take in Heero's every move, Duo moaned at the light pressure against his opening, shifting his body downward to coax a harder touch. Heero watched intently while he teased the sensitive area; turning his eyes upward to take in Duo's reactions as circled the opening before sliding one finger inside of him. "Oh...yes.. more!" Duo pleaded, gasping loudly as a second and third finger were added simultaneously, his body easily accepting the three digits.

Sensing Duo was nearly ready, Heero began moving them more roughly inside, twisting and spreading the three wide to fully stretch the entrance; assuring it would accommodate his sizeable arousal with minimal pain. "I cannot wait to be inside of you." he groaned, enjoying the effect his words had on his lover. Throwing his head back as Heero worked the three within him and Duo pushed back to drive them further into himself. "Neither can I... please, Heero..." he pleaded, dropping back down onto the bed.

His fingers slid from the tight passage to the sound of a load moan of displeasure. "Patience." he responded softly, lowering his head to lick precum the oozed from the tip of Duo's cock. Stretching across the bed, Heero retrieved the lube and rose to his knees between his lovers spread legs and placed the tube in Duo's open palm.

The cool gel warmed quickly with the friction of the tight fist that worked it over his length, Duo's thumb paying particular attention to the sensitive tip of his arousal. Removing the hand that threatened to send him over the edge, Heero took hold of the base of his cock, and positioned himself over Duo, gently rubbing it slickness over it's intended target before nudging the opening slightly. "Are you ready, Duo?" Heero asked softly. Duo nodded and Heero placed one hand on either side of Duo's head and slowly started entering him.

The tight muscles gave way easily and Heero's swollen head slipped past them with barely a wince of pain. "Yes... Ohh...... keep going, Heero." Duo moaned. Shifting his gaze to focus on the juncture of their joining, Heero groaned as he moved forward, looking back up at his lover once he had buried himself fully inside. "Nnn....Duo... you feel incredible. Everything okay?" he asked softly.

"Everything is perfect." Duo whispered. "This is perfect..." he moaned, wriggling his hips beneath his motionless lover. Being inside of Duo was pure bliss, the heat of his channel caressed every inch of his stiff flesh and he groaned loudly as Duo began moving under him. "Oh God...Duo." he groaned as he slid all but the head of his cock out of it's heaven, jerking forward to again bury himself to the hilt. Noting that Duo was enjoying the motion as much as he was, Heero repeated it several times. "Mmmm...like that?" he asked with a grin. Duo closed his eyes in response and wrapped his legs tightly around Heero's hips. "More." he moaned as he pulled him closer, grinding his hips upward.

Feeling Duo's leg lock on him loosen, Heero began thrusting into him, slowly at first... the tempo increasing rapidly as Duo's hips answered his with an equal urgency. Lowering himself down onto his forearms, Heero brushed his lips over those of his panting lover. "I love you, Duo Maxwell." he whispered, suddenly taking Duo's mouth by force, his cock plunging deep inside of him with the same intensity.

Duo's hips rose up off the bed as Heero's cock met with his prostate, losing his moan to his lover's ravaging mouth. Duo broke the kiss and threw his head back. "Unhh... Heero... that's gonna be the end of me." Heero thrust into him again with the same result causing Duo to cry out his name.

"Want me to stop." Heero whispered, still moving roughly inside. "Fuck No!!" he cried out, forcing his hips upward. "Good." Heero grunted, grinding his pelvis down to magnify the sensation of Duo's upward thrust. Heero rose again up to his hands and reached down in between their bodies, wrapping his fist around Duo's shaft. Gathering the dripping slickness at it's head to coat his hand, Heero began pumping his length as he continued his powerful thrusts. "Come for me, lover."

The two began moving against each other in unison and Duo's body began to tremble. "Oh God... HEERO!!" he screamed he reached his peak, his entire body quaking and writhing beneath Heero's. Caught up in the tidal wave of Duo's orgasm, Heero's senses were reduced to the tight squeezing of Duo's muscles around his cock and the twisted look of pure esctasy on his lover's magnificent face. "Nnnnn...DUO !!!" Still stroking Duo rapidly as he continued his release, Heero rammed himself into Duo's trembling body one last time, shuddering as he climaxed inside of him, crying out his claim on the braided young man.


The two lay out of breath and exhausted in each other arms on the bed for several minutes before either of them attempted to speak. "Mmmm... that was... mmm...." Heero smiled at his grinning lover. Duo leaned in to kiss him, "I'd say that was a fair assessment."

Rolling over onto his side, Heero laid his bent leg over Duo's, his reawakening arousal resting against the soft flesh of his thigh. "Already?" Duo asked smirking.

Not gracing his question with an answer, Heero moaned his response, pressing his body closer to Duo's.

"Mmmmm.... why do I get the feeling we aren't going to be leaving the apartment this weekend?" he asked, turning onto his side to capture Heero's mouth in a deep kiss, pulling him closer.

"Leaving the apartment?" Heero asked breathlessly as he broke the kiss. "Damned if we're leaving the bed."


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 40

Duo woke on Saturday morning to the smell of crisp bacon that had filtered its way into the bedroom. He let out a small yawn and rolled over onto the other side of the bed where Heero had slept beside him the night before. Unable to suppress a huge smile, he inhaled deeply; his lovers essence barely recognizable beneath the scent of their lovemaking that filled the room. Allowing himself a moment longer to remain in the luxury the thoughts the previous evening brought, he rose slowly and stretched before heading into the bathroom.


"I thought you said we weren't leaving the bed." the whisper came softly as two arms surrounded his waist from behind. "Hmmm?" he asked playfully.

Heero let out a low chuckle and closed his eyes as Duo planted a soft kiss on the nape of his neck, relaxing back onto him. "Mmmm.... I thought breakfast was a valid excuse." he replied, turning within the embrace to face his lover.

"Hmmm...." he mused, placing his lips on Heero's "... I guess we can make an exception." he finished, tilting his head to follow through on the kiss. With their bodies pressed against one anothers and finding Heero clearly as aroused as he was, Duo slid his hands into the back pockets of Heero's jeans and ground his hips against his lovers stiffness. Somehow finding the resolve to resist Duo's teasing and his body's own mounting urge, Heero broke the kiss yet left his arms surrounding Duo. "Hungry?" he questioned.

"Starved.." Duo began, "...but we can have breakfast first." he finished in a low seductive tone.


Dinner that evening found the two once again faced with Duo's immanent departure. The process was becoming more and more difficult. Heero had toyed with the idea of returning to New York once the project he was involved with was finished. Unfortunately, it wasn't slated for completion for another two months and the prospect of being separated for such as extended period was weighing heavily on both of their minds. He had decided against sharing his thoughts with Duo about moving back into the house until the time drew nearer; waiting to see how their relationship developed as well.

"Two months, huh?" Duo asked sadly, sighing as Heero nodded his response from across the table.

"I know... it's going to rough on both of us." Heero replied.

"You ain't kidding." Duo responded frowning, his fork nervoulsy poking at his egs.

"I'll be in Japan for the first month, but there's always the phone... and the computer." Heero spoke softly as he laid his hand on top of Duo's.

Duo nodded and smiled up at Heero's concerned statement. "Yeah.... they say absence makes the heart grow fonder anyway."

Heero raised his eyebrows. "Yes... we have some first hand experience with that. Don't we?" he asked smiling.

"Uhh...yeah, that we do." Duo returned with a low laugh. "So, when are you leaving?" he asked in a more serious tone.

"Tuesday morning." he replied as he pushed back from the table and brought himself to his feet.

Clearing the table in silence while Duo remained seated, Heero watched his pensive lover out of the corner of his eye. He had been working on securing the huge contract for the past 4 months, this upcoming trip was the culmination of a great deal of his current efforts... it was unavoidable. "Duo....."

Drawing himself slowly out of his thoughts, he looked up at his saddened lover and stood. "It's okay, Heero." he started, taking Heero's hands and intertwining their fingers as he smiled toard him. "I'll be fine. Think you can stand me for a few days after you get back though?"

"Hai." he replied solemnly taking Duo into his arms, "It's the being without you part I can't stand."


The four weeks he spent in the Orient held the imaginable frustration for both Heero and Duo. There was a scarcity of free time with Heero's hectic work schedule, the eleven hour time difference presenting it's own issues. It had become apparent by the end of the first week that the planned contact would never come to pass, though it wasn't for lack of effort on either one of their parts.


Eight days into Heero's trip and no suitable distraction worthy of Duo's attention, found three former Gundam pilots being descended on by one exceptionally cheerful braided young man. "Hey, Guys? I just had a great idea...."

Wufei looked suspiciously up at the twinkle of mischief in Duo's eyes before looking over at Trowa. "I recognize that look.... I think we are in serious trouble here."

Duo's grin widened as he addressed the three. "Oh come on! I know you're all up for a little adventure." he winked. "Life only happens once. At least listen to what I have to say."

The three nodded and Duo sat cross legged in the center of the den, clearing his throat once assured he had their undivided attention. "Well.... it's like this....." he began.


The phone rang shortly after Duo had tucked himself in for the night. It was an unusually early bedtime for a Sunday evening but the day's activities had sufficiently exhausted him. Extending his arm toward the nightstand, he blindly reached out for the receiver and brought it to his ear. "Hello?" he asked, his voice soft with sleep.

"Did I wake you?"

Duo sat up in his bed. "Heero? Hi! Yeah... umm... I'm up now though. How is the trip going?"

"Just wrapping things up here. I'll be heading home in another few days. How are you?"

"Better now. I've missed hearing your voice..... it's been almost a week." he responded somberly.

"I know, I'm sorry, Duo. I'm on a tight schedule here. You cannot believe how many hours a day they have me working. So, what have you been up to?"

"Not too much since I emailed you the other day. You got my mail, right?"

"Yeah. Sounds like you are very busy at work as well. Are you going to be able to get a few days off at the end of the week?" Heero asked, his voice reflecting his reluctant hope.

Duo lowered his head and shook it from side to side. "I'm not sure. I'll have to get back to you later in the week on that."

There was a brief period of silence at the possibility of having to further delay their reunion.



"I really friggen miss you......"


Murphy's Law chose to dictate the lovers' paths following Heero's return home, keeping Duo from returning to California for the next two weekends. The relationship was clearly strained by the events of the previous six weeks, more so for Heero than Duo.

The braided pilot had implored his ever present charm and not a small dose of shameless begging in securing the upcoming Friday off. Returning from his successful early morning visit with Une, he turned toward his computer to inform Heero of the good news.

[] morning sexy

Heero heard the beep and turned toward his computer, smiling as the words made their way onto his screen.

[] morning yourself

[] guess what?

Heero cocked his head, riddling his response with sarcasm.

[] the fates have finally decided to smile on us?

Duo laughed out loud and typed his response.

[] something like that. up for some company?

Heero frowned as he looked over at the stacks of printouts littering his desk and the floor surrounding it. There would be little time to spend with his long-absent lover during the upcoming weekend. He hoped that Duo would still be willing to make the long journey with that knowledge.

[] duo.. ive got two weeks left before i wrap this project up...

Duo mentally acknowledged the warning, the two having previously discussed Heero's upcoming heavy workload.

[] i know. i can postpone the trip for another two weeks if you want me to.

Heero shook his head and typed his reply.

[] no. just wanted to let you know we won't be able to spend much time together...

Duo smiled.

[] doesnt matter. my flight arrives at 4

Heero frowned.

[] not sure if i can make it to the airport by then, duo...

[] no worries. ill let myself in.


Sleep had come easy to Heero on Thursday night, as it had every night for the past several weeks. Returning home exhausted at nearly midnight, he barely recalled his head hitting the pillow before the alarm clock rang, startling him into a state of reluctant wakefulness. Grabbing a quick breakfast, he headed for the office, thoroughly distracted by thoughts of his lovers return.


Duo had spent little time beneath his covers that night in an attempt to get some rest. His mind continually assaulted him with the thousand and one things he had to do before his upcoming trip. He thought back over his conversation earlier in the day with Heero, his lover worried and perhaps feeling a bit guilty about the lack of time he would be able to devote to him. It really didn't concern him in the least. He delighted in the fact that Heero needn't be concerned for much longer either.... even if he didn't know it yet.


His lack of sleep the night before held little consequence as Duo was assured the five hour flight would allow him plenty of time to catch up on his much needed rest. What he didn't count on were having his thoughts hijacked.

SEated on the plane and now just 6 hours away from his destination, Duo found himself unable to think of anything but Heero. Laying out the scenario of their upcoming encounter, Duo rested his head back and inevitably envisioned their much anticipated physical reunion, his body reacting as would be expected. Looking down into his lap, he smiled and covered the bulge in his jeans with the small airline pillow and give in to the guilty pleasure of his naughty thoughts.


Heero looked up at the clock on the wall across his office for the third time in the past hour. He had every intention of surprising Duo at the airport, the one small glitch in the current script delaying his departure.

Finally working the bugs out, he rose and grabbed his jacket to make a hasty exit. He wouldn't be able to get to the terminal on time, but he could certainly manage to make it back to his apartment before for Duo's expected arrival; allowing him to properly welcome him back.


Kneeling in the hallway outside the apartment as he fished in his overnight bag, Duo zipped the bag closed and rose with keys in hand to unlock the door.

Hearing the activity on the other side of the door, Heero poised himself just inside the entrance, swallowing nervously as he watched the knob turning in a counterclockwise motion.... his heart pounding by the time the door cracked partway open. He could see Duo's hand on the rounded metal knob and watched with a smile as he bent to pick up his bag, unaware of Heero's eyes upon him.

Entering and closing the door behind him, Duo turned to find the object of desire standing in the center of the room. "HEERO!" he cried out, dropping his bag at his feet and throwing himself into Heero's open arms.

Arms filled with his smiling lover, Heero squeezed him tightly and nestled his head in the crook of Duo's neck, breathing deeply to inhale his long absent scent. "Mmmmm.... it's really you." he smiled, stepping back and taking Duo's hands in his.

Duo chuckled. "You were expecting someone else?"

Heero shook his head and moved forward, placing one hand on the back of Duo's head, drawing Duo's mouth to his with considerable force. It was perhaps the most intense kiss they had shared, both young men equally aggressive as their tongues sparred and explored each others mouths. Four hands revealed their longing as they roamed over each other bodies, touching everything within their grasp. Pressed firmly together with hardness against hardness, they rocked their hips against one another, further igniting the fires within.

Duo stepped back breathless several minutes later. "Wow." he grinned.

Heero blushed slightly and moved across the room to gather Duo's overnight bag. "So, how was your flight?"

Duo bent to untie his shoes, toeing them off before sending them flying across the room. "Actually, Heero..." he began, moving toward him. "I've been hard as rock for the past five hours thinking about you." he added, taking Heero's hand and guiding to his erection. "Mmmm....yes..." he moaned, pushing his hips forward into his lovers palm. Taking the bag from Heero's hand and dropping on the floor, Duo assaulted his open mouth as his hands reached behind Heero to grasp at his bottom, grinding himself into him. "You are going to do something about it, aren't you?" he moaned into Heero's ear.

Closing his eyes as he let out a low moan, Heero reached between them and unfastened Duo's jeans with one hand while the other delved inside to wrap a fist around his arousal, squeezing it gently. "I most certainly am." he whispered, removing his hand from inside Duo's pants. Tugging at the waistband, he slid the fabric down over his lovers legs, holding them still as he stepped out of them. "Those too." Heero ordered as he eyed his boxers, tented and wet with his desire.

"I'll be right back." Heero told him, turning to leave as Duo began slipping out of the silky shorts. Returning just seconds later with a white tube in hand, Heero took Duo by the hand, seating him on the edge of the sofa. "Lie back." he told him softly, coming to his knees on the floor in front of him. "Mmmm.... nice..." Heero moaned, lifting one of Duo's legs to rest his foot flat on the couch. "....very nice."

Covering the fingers of his one hand with the clear gel, he looked up at Duo, finding him attentive to his maneuvers. Reaching his hand up to brush his entrance, Heero watched as Duo spread his legs further apart for him and shifted to the edge of the sofa to allow him complete access. Rising to his knees, Heero pressed his chest against Duo's and looked into his eyes as he slid one finger into his opening. "You look so beautiful like this." he murmured, fingering him roughly. "Nnn.. Heero... more." he moaned, resting his head down on the arm of the sofa.

Recapturing his mouth in a deep kiss as he pushed a second finger inside, Heero began working them in and out as Duo shifted his hips to take them further inside. "Soon it will be me inside of you...." Heero whispered, "... making you beg for more.", continuing to stretch the tight passage. Sliding the digits out, Heero stood and removed his jeans and stepped out of them before seating himself on the couch. Duo watched as Heero covered his straining arousal with the slick gel, spreading his legs wide as he looked over at him. "Come here, koi." he called, extending his arms out to take Duo's hand in his.

Climbing up onto Heero's lap, Duo positioned himself over Heero's cock, holding onto the base firmly as he slowly lowered himself down onto it. His entrance stretched taut as the wide ridge of its head slipped past the tight barrier, gasping as inch by inch of Heero's thick length filled him. Cobalt eyes stared in awe as his violet-eyed lover took him in, the pleasure of the act sweeping across each of his features. "Oh....yesssss." he hissed, finally lowering himself down onto Heero's thighs.

"Is that what you wanted?" Heero asked, lifting himself up slightly off the couch to fully bury himself. "What you have been thinking about?" he asked, snapping his hips up again. "Uhhh... yes... that's it." Duo cried out, rising up and dropping back down onto Heero's lap. Heero's hands reached around him, each one opening wide to cup his lovers tight bottom. Holding each globe firmly, he slid himself to the edge of the couch and spread Duo's cheeks apart, thrusting up at the same time.

Two loud gasps accompanied the movement and Heero repeated it, Duo thrusting himself downward simultaneously. "Unh....do that again!" Duo cried out, reaching behind Heero with both hands to clench the back of the sofa. Heero hissed and firmly grasped Duo's waist, rocking his hips up. The added leverage gave Duo more power to his downward lunge, sending Heero's cock deep within him. "Ohhh.... Fuck!!" came the scream, followed by his shrill pleas. "Harder, Heero... please!!"

Duo's knuckles turned white as he braced himself against the sofa and rose up to let Heero's length slip almost completely from him before slamming himself back down. "Nnnn... Duo... faster!" Heero cried, tightening his grip on the soft flesh in his grasp as Duo increased the pace of his thrusts. "God.. Duo, you feel so good." he moaned, thrusting up into the velvety tightness. Sensing Duo was also on the verge of climax, Heero brushed his thumb over the tip of Duo's cock and wrapped his fist around the thick shaft, squeezing in tightly. "Nnn... look at me, Duo." he groaned.

Moaning in response to the words and touch, Duo looked down at Heero with eyelids heavy in pleasure. "I'm ready, baby, make me scream." he groaned, forcing his hips down to fully impale himself as Heero began stroking him roughly. "Geezus!! Duo !!!!" Heero screamed as the channel surrounding his cock constricted. "Uh... don't stop!" came the loud groan as the first stream left him to spray out over Heero's chest. "Oh yeah... harder Heero !!! That's it... come with me!" he screamed, riding him faster as he felt Heero shuddering beneath him. "DUO!!..... oh.... FUCK!!" he cried out, lifting his hips high up off the couch. Heero's cock began to throb and twitch within the sublime warmth and he let loose a loud cry as he climaxed, filling Duo with his essence. His hand continued coaxing the milky slickness from him, drawing more moans and whimpers of surrender from both of them.


Relaxing back into the couch, Heero pulled his sweaty lover down onto him where they lay panting in each others arms. Letting his fingertips move lightly up and down the length of Duo's spine, Heero moaned and lifted Duo up to look at him. "Sleepy?" he asked softly, smiling as Duo nodded, laying his head back down on Heero's shoulder. "Why don't you lie down. I'm going to work for while." he said, rising as Duo climbed off of his lap to curl up on the couch. "Wake me when you're done." he replied through a yawn.


The last thing Heero wanted to do was work. While it was only 6:30, he was exhausted; the fact that he could see the nude form of his sleeping lover stretched out on the couch from where he sat was more than mildly distracting. Focusing his attention back on the screen in front of him, Heero sighed and began compiling his latest script.

He watched Duo sleep on and off over the next few hours as several of the tasks he was currently working on required little input from him. The time passed quickly as he threw himself into the job, only the low rumbling in his stomach causing him to take note of the late hour.

Making his way into the kitchen, he pulled the menu for the local Chinese Restaurant out of the drawer and dialed. Uncertain as to Duo's likes and dislikes as far as this particular cuisine was concerned, Heero ordered 6 different dishes; figuring the two would finish the leftovers sometime during the weekend.


"Duo.." he called softly from a standing position over him. "... time to wake up."

Rolling over at the sound of Heero's voice, he looked up to find him smiling down at him. "What?" he asked with weak smile.

"Dinner will be here in about an hour." he informed his sleepy lover, bringing himself to his knees beside the couch. "I thought you might want to shower first." he finished, brushing the hair from Duo's face.

"Mmmm.. good idea." he returned, slowly bringing himself to a seated position on the couch. "You take one yet?" he questioned, looking up at Heero as he stood.

"No...." he started, pulling Duo to his feet and into his arms, "I figured I'd wait for you."

"Mmm.....did I ever mention that I like the way you think?" Duo purred as he followed Heero into the bathroom.


Duo turned the faucet on as Heero undressed and stood before the mirror to release his now disheveled braid. "So, what did you order for dinner... not that it matters, I'm starved."

"Chinese." Heero replied getting two towels out from the cabinet underneath the sink, "That okay?" he asked, laying them over the towel rack.

Duo nodded and stepped into the stall. "Though I much prefer Japanese." he grinned, pulling Heero inside and closing the shower curtain around them.

Heero shook his head and took Duo's hand, guiding him under the spray with him. "Do you know what I want?" he whispered, one arm tightening around Duo's waist to bring him closer. "You....." he moaned, rubbing his semi erect cock against the inside of Duo's thigh. "... inside of me."

Duo groaned as Heero made his desire known, the mere thought of it bringing his arousal to full attention. Pulling him closer, Duo shifted his hips to rub his erection against Heero's as his hand moved downward to tease his entrance. "Lube still under the sink?" he asked, stepping back. Answering with only a nod, he watched Duo step out of the shower, moaning out loud at the view as he bent over to reach inside the cabinet.

"You've got a great ass, koi." Heero informed his smirking lover as Duo stood and turned toward him. "So do you...." Duo returned, squeezing the gel out onto his hand and taking a step toward him. "...and I can't wait to bury myself in it." he finished with a rough kiss as he plunged one finger inside Heero's opening.

Pushing back on the single intruder, Heero moaned and pulled back from the kiss, "More..." he pleaded, pressing his lips against Duo's again as his lover complied, adding another finger as he worked the two in and out of his entrance. Heero's body offered little resistance as Duo stretched him, easily welcoming the third probing digit as he squirmed in Duo's arms. "Take me, Duo." he whispered, gasping as Duo removed his fingers and pulled him down onto his knees to face him.

Duo moaned as he covered his arousal with lube, shivering under his own touch. "Turn around, Heero." he ordered, reclining down onto his folded knees. Scooting back until his calves were next to Duo's, Heero rose and continued moving backward until he was pressed tight against Duo's chest, leaving his straining cock poised just inches from his eager entrance.

Reaching between them, Duo teased Heero's opening with blunt tip of his arousal, nudging it with a slight upward thrust of his hips. "Do it, Duo." Heero gasped as Duo pushed upward with hips, burying his head just inside. "Nnnn... Heero... I don't want to hurt you." he moaned.

Biting down on his lower lip as his opening stretched wide to accept Duo's thickness, Heero groaned aloud, thrusting himself down to take the rest of his length inside. "SHIT!" Duo cried out, shocked by Heero's sudden movement and the sensation of being buried deep within him. "Unh.....DUO!" Heero screamed, the initial pain of penetration fading quickly as his body accepted the slick intruder. Reclining back onto Duo's chest, Heero laid his head on the shoulder behind him, breathing heavy as fingers found their way up to his chest to tease and pinch his nipples. "You feel sooo good, Heero." Duo groaned, grinding his hips up into Heero's bottom.

Laying one hand on each of his thighs, Heero bent forward and lifted himself up, letting Duo nearly slip from within him before slowly lowering himself back down. Heero moaned as Duo grasped his hips tightly to guide his movements, increasing the pace and power of his motions. "I want to hear you scream." he whispered, jerking his hips up as Heero drove downward, the tip of his cock brushing against Heero's prostate. "UGH.... DUO !!!" he cried, his head falling back as he gasped in pleasure. "Again, Heero?" Duo asked seductively, his tongue licking roughly at Heero's extended neck. "Hai." he choked out, "..please...."

Not sure how much more of the intense stimulation he could stand, Duo reached around and curled his fist around Heero's thick shaft, diligently pumping it's length as he thrust up into him. "Lay back, Heero.... I want to see you come." he groaned, watching as Heero moved back to rest his head on his shoulder. "Mmm..... beautiful." he moaned as he focused his gaze on Heero's face.

With one hand gripping each side of the porcelain tub, Heero commenced his movements, Duo snapping his hips upward with each of his downward thrusts. "Oh yeah.... that's gonna do it." Duo growled, stroking Heero frantically. "Oh God.... DUO !!!" He cried out, arching back against Duo's chest as his body began to jerk and spasm. He could feel his muscles clenching around Duo's cock as he ejaculated, crying out in sheer ecstasy with the first stream of his release. Heero's wordless scream was the final straw and Duo let out his own cry, thrusting upward to seal himself against his lover's trembling form. His cock twitched inside the incredibly tight passage as he attained climax and he released his passion deep inside of Heero with a feral scream.


Finishing their shower, the two dried off and dressed, making their way into the living room just as the doorbell rang. "Perfect timing." Heero smiled as he walked toward the door. Duo nodded and entered the kitchen to set the table for dinner.

Duo volunteered to clear the table and put the leftover food away, allowing Heero more time to work. Seating himself on the couch with a book after he had finished the tasks, he turned to see Heero working diligently over his laptop. Smiling at the familiar sight, Duo laid down and began to read.

:: "The house stood on a slight rise just on the edge of the village. It stood out on its own and looked out over a broad spread of West Country farmland. Not a remarkable house by any means--it was about thirty years old, squattish, squarish, made of brick, and had four windows set in the front of a size and proportion which more or less exactly failed to please the eye." :: [5]


Momentary Lapse of Reason
Part 41

Saturday morning shortly after dawn found Duo stirring as Heero sought to disentangle himself from their embrace without waking his sleeping lover. His efforts proved to be unsuccessful and he found himself gazing into sleepy violet eyes. "Going somewhere?" Duo asked, reaching out to pull his seated young man back down onto the bed.

"I thought I'd get some work done while you were sleeping." Heero replied, stretching over to kiss his smiling lips.

"Mmm... stay for just another minute?" Duo asked, curling up to Heero as he lay down beside him. He was unable to deny his lovers request, this being the last of their mornings together for who knew how long and he pulled the blankets up to cover them both, wrapping Duo securely in his arms. "I could stay like this all day." Duo mused, lifting his head up off of the pillow and laying it back down on Heero's chest. Nodding in agreement, he closed his eyes and he kissed the top of Duo's head, squeezing him gently; suddenly there was nothing more important than the young man he held in his arms.


He could feel the warmth of Heero's body beside him long before he opened his eyes in an effort to rouse himself from sleep. There were no longer visible signs of stress on his lover's serene face and Duo wrapped one arm around Heero to pull him closer, the other hand pushing the dark brown hair from his face. "You really are a beautiful sight in the morning." he whispered, tilting his head to place a soft kiss Heero's forehead. As much as he would have preferred nothing more than the status quo, he reluctantly decided to wake him, knowing Heero would most likely be angry at himself for falling back asleep for as long as he had.

"It's almost 9:30." Duo announced softly, rubbing Heero's upper arm as he spoke. Heero let out a low moan and rolled over onto him, slowly opening his eyes to look up at Duo. "I fell back asleep." he noted, Duo nodding in return. "I think you needed it." he smiled, rolling over to seat himself on the edge of the mattress.

"I'll make breakfast this morning. Anything special you want?" he asked, turning to face Heero as he stood.

Heero shook his head and yawned, stretching his arms high up over his head. "I'm going to go take a quick shower. Whatever you make is fine." he replied, suddenly eyeing Duo's unclothed form with more than casual interest.

"Me first...I'll be fast." Duo replied, grinning at Heero as he grabbed a clean set of clothes. "And I'm not on the menu." he winked, heading for the bathroom.


Heero had managed to get dressed, boot his laptop, wash, dry and put away last night's dinner dishes and make a fresh pot of coffee, pouring them both a cup before Duo reappeared from the bathroom. Heero turned his eyes toward the room's entrance as he heard the approaching footsteps. "It's about time." he commented, slightly irritated.

Duo paused his motions at hearing the inflection in his words. "Sorry.... It's the hair." he returned, recommencing towel drying his hair. "Shower is all yours. I'll start breakfast." he finished, laying the large towel over his shoulders as he approached the refrigerator

"I made coffee. Yours is on the table." Heero told him as he stood to exit the room, turning back as he neared the rooms exit to join his partially clad lover across the room. "I'm sorry, Duo." he spoke from his place several feet behind him. "I'm a little on edge lately. It's understandable that you took so long in the shower." he finished, reaching forward to take a lock of Duo's wet hair into his hand.

"S'ok, Heero." he smiled weakly as he turned toward him. "We haven't had time to get used to each other's routines."

Heero nodded, still guilty about his harsh words. "I didn't mean to...."

"Don't worry about it, Heero...really." Duo smiled. "Now go take your shower." he ordered, turning Heero toward the rooms exit and giving him a little push.

Duo somberly watched Heero's retreat and leaned back onto the kitchen countertop letting out a huge sigh.

:: Oh God... I hope this wasn't a big mistake ::


Duo was tense as he set about preparing breakfast, looking over at the clock several times, the minutes seeming to pass more like hours as he anxiously waited for Heero to finish his shower. He had barely started of his coffee, the first sip making him all too aware of his already trembling hands.

Setting the cup down on the table, he looked again toward the doorway and then up at the clock. Checking one more time that he had not forgotten anything as he had hastily set the table, Duo sat and rethought how he should break the news to Heero of what he had planned. While this was certainly not the most opportune moment to trot it all out, he was left with no other choice.


Smiling nervously as Heero entered the kitchen, Duo took the platter of pancakes from the oven and carefully set them in the center of the table, seating himself across for Heero.

"They look great." Heero commented, standing to reach forward and place several of them on Duo's plate, then his own before sitting back down. "Duo... I've been thinking...." he began.

Duo snapped his head up to look at Heero, his heart racing as he searched for a clue of what Heero was about to say on his face....nothing. He bit his lower lip, wringing his hand together on his lap beneath the table.

"Is something wrong, Duo?"


Heero nodded. "After this project is over, I think I'd like to turn in my notice and move back to New York." he spoke, trying to gauge Duo's response.

"What?!?" Duo asked quite surprised.

"If you'd rather I wait a while...." he started.

"No." Duo was quick to cut him off.."I mean that's a great idea, but ummm......"

"But what?" Heero asked, clearly puzzled by Duo's hesitation.

"You see, I kinda have something to tell you." he started, rising from the chair. "While you were in Japan, I had this idea...." he paused. "We both missed each other a lot, right?" he asked.

Heero nodded. "That would be an understatement. Go on."

"I thought it would be nice for us to be a bit closer. I mean being on opposite sides of the country was getting to be real drag.... you know? You with and your job..... all the long hours and travel and me...."

"Get to the point, Duo." Heero smiled toward him.

"Fine.", he relented, taking in a deep breath. "I've been temporarily transferred to the Preventer's California office."

"That's great." Heero smiled, rising to cross the room. "When? How long until you move out here?" he asked.

"Actually, Heero.... I'm already here. Thursday was my last day in New York." he replied, looking up at the clock. "Uhhh... this is probably bad timing, but I need to go look at the housing the office set up. I'm supposed to meet the real estate agent there at noon."

"Housing?" Heero asked.

"Yeah....the office is located about and hour and a half from here."


"Oh what?" he asked. "You didn't just think I'd move in without talking to you about it first, did you?"

"It wouldn't have been such a bad idea." he smiled, wrapping his arms around him. "Though I would have to ask the landlord's permission to install a second shower." he winked, kissing the tip of Duo's nose.

"Either that or we'd have to take our morning showers together." Duo snickered.

"Mmmm... that could work.... though we'd have to get up a little earlier." he returned playfully.

Duo winked and stepped back. "Not to change the subject... but I really have to go. Would it be okay if I borrowed your car? I mean, if you'd rather not, I understand. I can call a cab."

"Want company?" Heero asked, surprising Duo.

"Sure!!" he replied, hurrying from the room to finish getting dressed. " I just assumed you would need to stay home and work." he told Heero who followed him into the bedroom.

"I do need to work." Heero replied, shutting down his laptop and slipping it into is leather bag. "You drive...." he smiled, tossing the keys at Duo "....and I'll work." he finished, laying the black leather strap over his shoulder.

Duo looked down at the keys in his hand and then back up at Heero. "Deal." he smiled, exiting the room behind him.


The first 15 minutes of the 90 minute trip were spent with Heero as navigator, reading the huge map as the two tried to make their way around the unfamiliar territory.

"God! The roads here are worse than in New York." Duo commented, finally entering the freeway.

"I'm still not used to them." Heero commented as he folded the map and returned it to the glove compartment. Reclining back into the seat, Heero looked over at Duo. "So how long is this temporary transfer?" he asked.

"I kind of left it open ended. I wasn't sure if you'd be okay with it...." Duo told him, his hesitation prompting Heero to respond.

"Why wouldn't I be?" he asked, noting the frown on Duo's face. "Duo?"

"Well.. things like this morning. Despite the fact that we've known each other for so long, everything is still new and we really don't know each other....yanno? Am I making sense here?" he asked, looking over at Heero.

"Yes and keep your eyes on the road, Duo." he warned. "I suppose things are bound to come up.... though they are not likely to change anything. We just need to work through them. Being closer is definitely a good thing. I'm glad you thought of it, Duo."

Duo nodded. "I wasn't so sure after this morning. I am now though." he smiled, reaching over to take Heero's hand in his. "We can see each other every weekend and even on weeknights if we want to." Duo continued in an attempt to feel him out.

"If we want to?" Heero asked, releasing Duo's hand to reach down at his feet for his laptop. "Interesting choice of words there, koi."

"Were they?" Duo asked, adding. "I'm not taking anything for granted here."

"Me neither." Heero replied, focusing all further attention on the screen before him.

Duo glanced over several minutes later to find Heero typing away, seemingly oblivious to his surroundings and he smiled. The reluctance he felt earlier had all but vanished, he could only hope Heero was equally as pleased with the rest of the afternoons revelations.


Announcing to Heero that they would be exiting the parkway momentarily, Duo reached into the back seat and grabbed a small yellow piece of paper, looking down at it. "We are about ten minutes away from what it says here." he commented, handing the paper to Heero. Setting it on the dashboard, Heero shut down his laptop and returned it to it's case before lying it carefully at his feet.

Taking his sunglasses from the glove box, he slipped them on and took the yellow paper in hand. "Any idea what type of accommodations they are?" he asked.

"Ummm.... not really. Something nice I hope."

Heero looked out the window at the neighborhood they were passing through. "If it's anywhere near here, I'd say very nice." he commented. "Turn left on West Street. Should be the next traffic light."

"Yeah, this is a great area." he returned, signaling his intention to turn ahead.

Driving several blocks, he looked over at Heero, who seemed to be lost in thought. "Everything okay?"

Heero nodded. "Do you see the size of some of these houses?" he asked, lifting his glasses to look at Duo.

Duo smiled over at him. "Uh huh. Should I keep going straight?" he questioned.

"Oh... sorry." Heero blushed, looking back down at the directions. "Yeah.... turn left at the stop sign ahead." he pointed. "That should be Sycamore. Are you sure these are the right directions?"

"Pretty damn sure." Duo smiled, pulling into the fourth driveway on his left. "We're here." he smiled, putting the car in park and turning off the ignition. He looked over at Heero as he gripped the door handle to exit. "Shall we?" he asked smiling at the dumbfounded statement on Heero's face

The two exited the car and stood back to admire the house. It was a huge white colonial with a brightly painted red door and slim black shudders on each of the countless windows that covered nearly all of the front facade of the house. It sat back some distance from the road, almost lost amongst the acres of green that surrounded it.

"Are you certain this is the right address?" he asked again, looking down at the paper he held.

"Yup...I'm positive, Heero." he grinned, taking his lover by the hand. Digging the key from his front pocket, Duo unlocked the door and motioned for Heero to enter, pulling the door closed behind him. "The real estate agent said he would meet us here. Let's go inside," he smiled.

Pausing as they heard voices once they had passed through the foyer, Duo turned toward Heero and kissed him soundly. "I hope you aren't going to kill me for this." he grinned, covering both of Heero's eyes with his hand as he pulled him forward through the house.

"Kill you for what, Duo?" Heero asked sternly.

"Ohhh....you'll see." he replied cheerfully.

The voices seemed to fade as the two continued on through several rooms, the murmurs finally silenced as they came to a sudden stop. Pulling his hand away from Heero's eyes, Duo stepped back away from him, watching as he opened them. He stared in shock at his three friends who stood smiling in front of him, before turning to face Duo with his mouth still agape.

"Surprise?" Duo wondered, still unsure of Heero's reaction.

"Yes.." Heero nodded. "Very. How did you....? You all...? Wow." he grinned, taking several steps toward Trowa, Wufei and Quatre, shaking each of their hands firmly before pulling each of them toward himself and into a warm hug. He stepped back and looked around the room they were in.

The kitchen was enormous with a sandstone quarry tile floor. The two outside walls, were covered completely in glass, a pair of french doors opening out onto a huge wooden deck, the rear yard behind it stretching out far beyond his line of vision. The room was exquisite, but it wasn't the room itself that Heero found himself affected by, it was the furnishings. His eyes became misty as a clearer picture of just what was happening presented itself. "I don't know what to say..." he began, squeezing Duo's hand tightly.

"How about saying you like it?' Duo asked in jest, "It's a lot bigger than our house in New York." Duo smiled, shaking Heero's to snap him out of his trance.

"So, all of you transferred out here? We're all going to live here? Together?" he asked, the implication of what his friends had done finally sinking in.

"That's the plan, Heero." Duo smiled, reaching into his pocket. "This is for you as well." he added, placing the folded paper into his outstretched hand.

Heero looked at the four for a moment and then down at the paper in his hand.

"Go ahead. Read it." Duo nudged him with his elbow.

Heero carefully unfolded the paper under watchful eyes and began reading, slowly folding the paper back up into quarters when he was through. "Now I really don't know what to say."

"Lady Une was more than thrilled at the prospect of you returning to work." Trowa added. "We all are." he added, looking over toward Wufei and Quatre who were both nodding.

"It's not a problem if you need some time to think about it." Duo told him, smiling as Heero immediately shook his head.

"No, Duo. No... I don't need time to think about it at all." Heero smiled warmly. "I'm just shocked that all of you are here and that we..." Heero lowered his head, overcome with emotion at the lengths his friends had gone to in order to make this a happen and the reality that the five of them would being together again.

"S'ok, Heero." Duo told him softly, wrapping both of his arms around him. "I take it you're not mad then?" Duo asked as he lifted Heero's chin. "Not going to threaten to kill me? No 'omae o korosu'?" he asked shaking his head from side to side, finally pulling a weak smile from his emotional lover. "I do kind of miss that you know.." he added, kissing Heero's slightly upturned lips.

"Baka." Heero grinned as Duo rolled his eyes up into his head at his use of the word.

"So, you want the five cent tour?" he asked, "Actually, he whispered, "it costs more like a dime in this neighborhood."

Heero smiled and nodded. "We'll be right back." he called to the others, pulling Heero from the room.


Every room of the house was furnished, although sparely, with their belongings from their home in New York. "This house is a lot bigger than the other one." Duo began, slowly moving from one room to the next. "We could use a few more things to fill it up." he smiled.

Heero nodded appreciatively as they made their way up the huge oak staircase in the center of the house. "The bedrooms are all up here." Duo informed him, pausing as they reached the top of the steps. "Take a look at that pool." he smiled, pulling Heero toward the enormous window at the upper landing. "One more great reason to live out here.... twelve months of swimming and it's heated too." he winked.

Continuing down the hall, Duo pointed to the first of the doors on their left. "That is Trowa and Quatre's room. This one is Fei's." he announced still walking toward the end of the hallway. "And this one is ours." he smiled, opening the last door to allow them to enter.

Heero nodded to acknowledge Duo's words, still standing in the hallway as he peered into the room.

// our room //

"You can go in, you know." he chuckled, pulling him inside and closing the door behind them. "I think we could use some new furniture in here though. This stuff doesn't match....it's everything from your room and from my room."

"Kind of clashes, actually." Heero noted, walking around the huge room. "I say we keep it."

"Nani? Why would we want to do that? It looks...well... hideous!" he replied smiling.

"As a reminder." Heero started, glancing over at Duo who nodded his understanding. "...at least for now. I see you replaced the beds though." he added with a grin.

"Yeah...well..." Duo began as he made his way over to Heero "I didn't think sleeping in separate beds was an option."

"It's not." Heero replied, pulling Duo down onto the bed on top of him. "A waterbed?" he asked shocked as their bodies rose and fell with the motion of the liquidy mattress.

Duo giggled. "Umm....yeah.... I thought it would be fun." he leered, flipping Heero over onto his back.

"Is that all you think about. Fun?" Heero asked teasingly as he looked up at his grinning lover.

"Nope." Duo replied with a huge grin, his face turning more serious as he continued. "Most of the time....I think about you... and how lucky I am that I have you..... and that we are us." he spoke softly, bending down to administer a chaste kiss "...and of how much I love you." he finished, pressing his lips tightly against Heero's before seeking entry with his tongue.

Heero swallowed hard and closed his eyes as Duo's tongue pushed past his lips and entered his mouth, his own responding to the slow twisting movement of Duo's tongue around his. Heero was amazed that there were such a wide variety of kisses, the one they were engaged in once again different from anything the two has thus far shared. This one seemed to convey something far beyond what their words would ever be capable of expressing. Opening his eyes to gaze up at Duo, Heero found his eyes open as well.

Shimmering violet jewels looked longingly down at him and he found himself lost in their promise. He could only hope his own eyes were able to reveal the depth of passion he felt for the beautiful young man in his arms.

He need not have worried.... they did.....



[5] This is the first paragraph of "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" by Douglas N. Adams. I highly recommend reading his entire 'Hitchhiker's Trilogy' which, in keeping with his grand sense of humor, consists of not 3, but 5 incredible novels. I was deeply saddened by his untimely death last week at the far too early age of 49.... just 7 years beyond the answer to life, the universe and everything.....