Sequel to His Eyes
Hn, stupid baka.
He always talks, always jabbers on about the pointless things. And I know, that he's smarter than that. He's so intelligent it's scary sometimes.
Coming from me, that's got to mean something.
And yet, odd as it sounds, I wouldn't have it any other way. I see it in his eyes how he feels about things. Things bother the braided baka so bad that he covers them with his laughs, his jokes. He loves life so deep, sees things so plain and simple that he lets everything in. Even me. He let me in, and I can't love him enough for it.
I remember the night after the war ended, how he grabbed me and practically threw me on the first soft surface he could find. I snickered at his over eagerness, but now that I think about it I was just as eager as he was.
We ended the night in pure bliss, holding one another close, whispering things that only we could understand. My angel of death. Mine. I can't stand the thought of him in another's arms, or kissing another, or
I always stop myself there. It hurts too much to continue. His laughs and smiles are all for me. I own him, as he says after the aftermath of our lovemaking. He doesn't know that he owns me in more way than one. He owns my heart, my soul me. Everything I have, it's his.
Everything I want is him. When he looks at me threw his bangs, with those bright eyes so full of life, I fall again every time.
Duo, I would say if I could, I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you more than peace and death.
Silly, he would laugh, I *AM* death.
Then he would shove me down and cover my lips with his feather soft ones.
Do you know what it's like to watch that boy smile? Do you know what it's like to see him point out things with a child-like interest? Do you what it's like to watch him sleep at night curled around you so tightly you can't breath?
He always thinks that for some ungodly reason I'm going to leave him.
Of course I never really give him a reason to think I'll stay forever. He says things that make me want to break down and cry inside with happiness and do you know how I reply? Hn! I `hn' all my emotions, all my sentences toward him. I want to tell him what he means to me, but that would be so out of character. So not me.
And I know he knows how much I care. It's just so hard for me to voice my emotions. It's confusing sometimes. Do you know how long it took me to say `I love you' for the first time? It didn't spill from my lips like his steady confession.
Heero, he said, I know what I want in life. I know where I want to go and who I want to be. And I know *who* I want in my life. You, and only you. You're my life Hee-chan, you're the only thing that keeps me from going insane and killing everything. You've been my secrete strength so much in my life that I can't stand to think of life away from you. So please Heero, please, say just say you'll stay with me.
Always, my love, always and forever.
And I nodded, I *nodded*. I didn't throw my arms around him and kiss him like I wanted to, oh no, I *nodded*. Duo has always been the romantic one in our relationship. Something, might I add that I intend to change.
You should have seen his face! The moment he walked threw the door his mouth drop so fast it was funny.
Heero, he asks, what's up? What's with the candles?
I shrug and step forward, taking his hand and leading him to the table where I made the best damn dinner I could, Mac and Cheese.
Oh Heero, he says as tears fill his eyes, this is so nice. Thank you koi, thank you from my heart.
We eat dinner in semi-silence, because Duo keeps feeling up on me and I keep jumping. I love it when he does that, and he knows it.
Some how we end up in the bedroom, close in a heap on the floor. He kisses me everywhere. I want him to stop, I want me to do this, and I wanted this to be his night to sit back and let me take control. I push him back and lay him gently against the pillows.
I only mummer a `koi' and `trust me'.
I gently kiss his neck, sucking gently on his collarbone. He makes a small gasping sound and smile up at him.
Duo, I think, I want this to be perfect.
I reach up and capture his mouth with mine, licking his lips as a way of asking for entrance. He complies and opens them. Our tongues dance together, and I kiss him hotly.
We pull back gasping for breath. He moans my name and I smile at his impatience.
We lay in a heap of sweaty limbs after wards, me running a hand threw his hair, him snuggled deep against me chest.
"I love you."
"I love you too koi."
He smiles against my chest and wraps his thin arms around my waist.
Mine, Duo, mine from now until the end of time.
Oi! I REALLY tried on this one. See, I wanted to write a yaoi scene but I got all nervous about it being INCREDIBLY bad, so I skipped it. -_-; I don't think I'll ever be able to write one. *sob*
All you people that are talented enough to write them, God how I hate you kidding! *Mummers something about needing to deal with frustration better.*