warnings: shouen-ai, sap, probably OCC
archive: none but who would want this anyway...but on the off chance you do just let me know and you can have it
My pain turned burning desire.
A wanting need to love and be loved.
What am to do with these feelings I do not fully understand?
Is it love or lust?
But this pain. . . .
Does it come from lust?
How could it?
I dont believe lust could cause such wonderful pain.
I love another person. . . .
How can this be?
I was not meant to love, I was meant to fight. How can one that has not feelings love?
I must have feelings thats the only way I could. I believed them to be gone. Not gone only buried. However, they are not buried anymore.
I was the perfect soldier.
I was not perfect though.
I had no feelings I was a robot.
Not anymore. . . . because of him.
How can pain be wonderful?
I never knew. . . never knew. .
I must tell him he must know I am not the perfect soldier anymore.
Its all his fault anyway.
But what if my feelings are not returned!?
Can I go on if their not?
I have to even if there not returned I must tell him. I wont be able to be around him if I dont. And I have to be around him were partners and friends.
I will tell him.
Now where is he??
I guess Ill search the house for him. Hes not here. . . or here. . . or here. . .
Where could he be ? Usually hes trying to bug me somehow or reading he does love to read and yet hes nowhere to be found.
Ooooo. . . theres Quatre Ill ask him if he knows.
Oi, Quatre do you know where Duo is ?
Oh Duo he said he was going into town to the next book in the series that reading
Sou ka . . . arigato.
No problem, oh and by the way he said hed probably be back by 4.
Hes not going to be back till four! Arghhhh!! Its only 2:30.
That means I have to wait.
Ok I have to do something there has to be something I can to keep my mind of this. I know Ill work on wing, that always gets my mind of things.
. . . An hour later. . .
Alright wing is all fixed up now lets see what time it is. 3:30 Thats still a long time and I have nothing else to do. Oh wait maybe I should take a shower. Yeah that might be good.
. . . 8 minutes later or one Heero shower. . .
Ok Ive only got a little while now.
What to do . . . what to do. . .
. . . . . . . . . .
Great now Im pacing in our room.
What it he does reject me ?
Am I so sure I can go on with out him?
Would it be ok if he didnt love me back?
Could I survive ?
I better sit down Ive still got a little while here. Or maybe Ill lay down Im a little tired here. Hmmmm. . . this bed smells like Duo . . . .
Duo. . .
. . .3:45 or when Duo gets home. . .
Oh my !
Wow, Heero is actually asleep during the day. Never in my life would I have thought. . .
Well I guess Ill let him rest seeing as he must be tired. Ill just read in the living room . .
Wait Duo! I need to talk to you.
Duo I need to tell you something
Ok shoot Heero, you can tell me anything
Ok . . . DuoIminlovewithyouandifyoudontreturnthefeelingsitsokandIunderstandwhyyouwouldneverwanttoseemeanain.
Heero is that you? Did you say what I thought you said?! oh kami-sama he said he loved my Im sure of it, it just has to be true
Duo I love you
Oh Heero I love you too
Duo then glomped onto Heero and gave him the most tender loving kiss that he could.
Ai shiteru . . . Kire kara zutto. . .itsumademo.