Disclaimers: I do not own GW nor do I claim to, ‘Otherside’ is not mine it belongs to the Red Hot Chili Peppers. This is for entertainment purposes only, not making any profit. I claim nothing but the fic.

Warnings: Heavy Angst, Yaoi, Language, AU?, OOC? D Warning: Auntie have a tissue!!!!

Pairings: ?+2 (mention of 1+2)

Author: dhuron

Archive: See sig line

Notes: This is in answer to Shi-chan’s songfic challenge. The next version shall be all lemony goodness with our favorite pairing (1X2). Anyway, have a tissue just in case this is really really dark. *emotional wise* Version Two will be very lemony....*grins*..but since I'm evil I'll make shi-chan wait.

//..// thoughts
“...” song lyrics

 

“Otherside” Version 1

 

“How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever”

Duo stared at himself in the mirror, the vision made him want to throw up. His body was covered with hand shaped bruises, bite marks and the such. The gleam in his eyes had long ago vanished. The war had ended a long time ago, of all the pilots he was the one that couldn’t adjust into the real world.

“I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up it brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the otherside
Centuries are what it meant to me
A cemetery where I marry the sea
Stranger things could never change my mind
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on”

He looked at the only picture he had in his belongings, it was of the only person he loved. He thought he had a chance with the pilot of Wing, so he waited and hoped things could be different after the war. He was saving himself for him, knowing in his heart they were meant to be. ‘Where did you vanish to?’

“How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever”

He thought back to earlier that evening. The ‘client’ he had tonight was brutal. Unbidden tears fell from his eyes. //I’m a failure//

“Pour my life into a paper cup
The ashtray's full and I'm spillin' my guts
She wants to know am I still a slut
I've got to take it on the otherside
Scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
A candidate for my soul mate bled
Push the trigger and pull the thread
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on”

The sobs and tears racking his abused body, Duo ran to the bathroom and retrieved the item he would need. //This is the only way, my only release//

“How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever”

He looked at the gleaming metal, it called to him. Gave him promises from the pain in his heart and soul. In two quick swipes, his wrists started bleeding. He could feel the slight pain, but also his painful life leaving him.

“Turn me on take me for a hard ride
Burn me out leave me on the otherside
I yell and tell it that
It's not my friend
I tear it down I tear it down
And then it's born again”

The tears fell from his eyes onto the floor, mixing with his life’s blood. He heard someone knocking at the door, but it was distant and his vision blurring.

“How long how long will I slide
Separate my side I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever”

He could feel the end near, one last sob escaped his throat. From far away he saw his door burst open and a frantic Heero running to his side.

“How long I don't believe it's bad
Slit my throat
It's all I ever”

He could barely hear the other boy sobbing while holding him against him. “Heero” he said, barely above a hoarse whisper, darkness overtaking the light. ‘Please don’t leave Duo, PLEASE. I’m so sorry, come back Ai shiteru” Somewhere in Duo’s mind he heard the confession, that last part of him was filled with joy and began to fight, wanting to live...

 

TBC????

Grr...minna this was meant to be a one shot but you all know how my muses are. So the question should I let Duo live? Should I put them together? Should I continue with a sequel?? Shi-chan how’d I do?

I still plan on doing another version based on our ‘little talk’. Be looking for it.

 

On to Facing Truth