Disclaimers: GW is not mine, I don’t claim to own them. I am only using them for a set amount of time. I will use various songs within this part, I do not own them nor claim to. This fic is for entertainment only, not making any money what so ever. This part has lime/lemon, do not read if you are not suppose to, if it offends you leave now. You’ve been warned. Excuse any typos I may have made.

Archive: Those that have my other fics yes, anyone else email me first.

Warnings: Yaoi, Lime/Lemon ANGST!!, multi-songfic, Language, OOC and AU.

Rating: Anywhere from PG-13 to R

Pairings: 2X1/1X2,3+4,R+1, H,

Notes: Here are the songs I will be using, (can’t ya tell I like Toni? Her songs fit so well!)

(....) “Tell Him” by Celine Dion. The main song
@...@ “Gunning Down Romance” by Savage Garden, Duo’s song
$....$ “Another Sad Love Song” by Toni Braxton, Hilde’s
^.....^”How Do I live” by Leann Rimes, Relena’s
#.....# “Breathe Again” by Toni Braxton, Heero’s

//....// Thoughts
********* scene changed



(I’m Scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There’s another one he’s thinking of
Maybe he’s in love)

Duo tossed and turned in his sleep. His dreams were filled with bittersweet images. His past life with Father Maxwell at the church to his breakup with Hilde. Sweat covering his body, the dreams morphed into fantasy of him and Heero. The events of the evening intertwined with his body’s wishes, a simple kiss the prelude to hips gyrating together, warm bodies pressing against each other, mouths and tongues fighting for dominance. Duo moaned into the pillow, rubbing against the bed, looking for friction. The dream went to another level, naked chest rubbing, soft moans filling the room. Thrusting against the sheets, Duo’s moaning filled the empty room, climbing to climax as wave after wave of pleasure filled his entire being. Unable to hold back further, he came in his boxers with a strained yell. Opening his eyes, Duo realized it was only a dream. //A damn good dream..// Getting out of bed, he stripped the sheets off and looked for the other boy. //He is so cute when he sleeps//. Running to the dresser he grabbed a clean pair of boxers and went into the adjoining bathroom for a shower. Turning on the radio inside the stall, he sang along with the music.

@Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain
And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in your veins
in your veins
Love come quickly because I feel my self esteem is caving in
It’s on the brink
Love come quickly@

He stood under the hot shower spray, lost in deep thought. //He kissed me! But what does it mean to him? Just a release? Sexual Gratification? Is he truly interested in me, or just tired of being alone?// He stayed in the shower until the water went cold. Climbing out of the tub he dried himself, slipping into the boxers he left the bathroom and quickly dressed. Looking back at the sleeping boy, he left the room to go take a walk.


(I’d feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don’t know what to do)

Heero was awaken by the soft moans, cracking one eye open, he looked across the room. He saw what Duo was doing in his sleep, the sight arousing him. //Who is he dreaming of? Is it me that he is making love to?// He heard the strangled yell, he quickly closed his eye and feigned sleep. Waiting until he heard the shower, Heero opened his eyes once again lost in thought. //He did respond when I kissed him? Did I read his sign correctly? Is he regretting it already?// He faked sleep once again as Duo came out and left the room, not seeing the look Duo threw at him. //I love him I know it, does he feel the same way?//

#If I never feel you in my arms again
If I never feel your tender kiss again
If I never hear I love you now and then
Will I never make love to you once again
Please understand if love ends
Then I promise you, I promise you
That, that I shall never breathe again.
Breathe Again
Breathe Again
That I shall never breathe again #

He stayed in bed wondering what to do know. //I can’t live without you Duo, don’t you understand?//


Relena had just finished talking with Hilde. She managed to convince her to come and try again with Duo. //Poor Hilde, maybe now Duo will forgive her and maybe take her back.// She had made arrangement for Hilde’s plane and transportation once she arrives. Her thoughts then shifted to her obsession, looking at the picture once again her heart clenched.

^How do I,
get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You’re my world, my heart my soul ^

//Why did you leave again? Can’t you see I need you, I need you more than anything else in this world.// Firming her resolve to regain her lost ‘love’, Relena started to plan how to win him back.


Trowa walked into the study in search of Quatre. He found him at the computer with a thoughtful expression. “What is it Quate?”

“I’ve found Duo!”


Ever since he had disappeared over a year ago without word, Trowa and Quatre became worried for their friend and tried to locate him. They had no success, and were beginning to think they’d never find him, until this day. “Yes love, he is at a collage. They got a picture of him right here.” He pointed to the photo displayed on the screen. They also noticed Heero was there, standing behind the braided one with a strange inner fire lighting his eyes. Looking at each other and nodding, they ran to pack.


( I’ve been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
you can’t let the chance
To love him pass you by
Should I
Tell Him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes)

Heero found his beloved a few hours later in the lunchroom. He was sitting with a group of his friends laughing and having a good time. Heero just watched Duo, the light in his eyes, the movement of those lips. His hand moved to touch his own, trying to remember the feel of Duo’s on his. Unable to walk up to him, Heero turned and headed back to his room.

Duo saw Heero turning and leaving, pushing from the table the ran after him. The sight of him walking away was too much to bear. Reaching their door, he paused to gather his thoughts and calm his racing heart.

@Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine
They’re morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen
Rarely seen
Love I beg you
Lift me up into that privileged point of view
The world of two
Love don’t leave me
Because I console myself that
Hallmark cards are true
I really do @

Duo turned the doorknob and walked into the room, only to see Heero laying face down in his bed, his shoulders shaking. //Is he crying?// Quickly going to his side, he placed a hand on the shoulder. Heero jump at the touch, turning his head he saw his angel. He allowed to be pulled into the warm embrace. Both were engulfed in the fire of passion, the floodgates burst and Heero moved up and claimed those soft lips.

Duo’s mind was overcome with primal passion as he matched Heero’s intensity. Quickly removing the tank top, he explored the firm chest, looking for weak spots. Mentally smirking when he heard a gasp. Heero’s hands didn’t remain idle, he had removed Duo’s top and was working on the pants. The world vanished as the remainder of their clothes were tossed across the room. Neither one able to think, only feel the uncanny desire running rampant within their bodies. Blindly searching through the nightstand, Duo’s hands found the round tube. Quickly opening it and squeezing some on his hand, he moved the coated hand to the puckered entrance, teasing it before pushing one coated slender finger in. Heero hissed at the invasion, willing himself to relax, deepening the kiss to distract himself he didn’t notice when a second finger was added. Working the two fingers in and out of him, Duo added a third searching for that special spot. When Heero nearly screamed, he knew he found it. Deciding he was prepared enough, Duo removed the fingers and quickly coated his member, grabbing the slick arousal in one hand he guided it to the puckered entrance. Looking into those cobalt eyes, he slowly pushed his way in, not stopping until he was fully buried. Heero’s eyes were locked on Duo’s, panting and moaning as he was impaled upon Duo, squirming when Duo stopped trying to get some friction. Finally the hard length within him started to move in slow deep thrusts, hitting his prostate. The thrusts increased in speed until the sound of skin slapping against skin accompanied the hoarse moans. Feeling close to the edge, Duo grabbed the hard shaft between their bodies and stroked it to match the frenzy speed of his thrusts. Heero yelled in ecstasy as he came, clamping down on Duo. Thrusting one last time, Duo released his seed into the tight channel. Panting and covered with sweat, Duo slowly pulled out and laid next to Heero. Completely sated, the two of them fell into sleep’s embrace.

(Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside)


The plane ride was long for both Trowa and Quatre. Both were anxious to see their lost friend. Since the war, they had not kept in touch with the others. Their relationship grew stronger each day, now both felt guilty for being so happy when their friends were not. Not wanting to tell Trowa, but Quatre couldn’t shake the feeling of something bad happening soon. Getting into the cab, they drove to the campus to see Duo once again.


$Since you been gone
I been hangin’ around here lately
With my mind messed up
Jumped in my car tried to clear my mind
Didn’t help me
I guess I’m all messed up now baby
Soon as I jumped into my ride
Those memories start to play$

Hilde was driving to the campus where Duo was. //I know I said I’d give up, but I can’t. If I can’t have him back, then I just want forgiveness.// Looking at the clock, she still had a couple of hours before reaching her destination.


The pink limo pulled into the parking lot of the collage campus. Relena got out of the car and went straight to the information center, focused on one thing. //Heero//

^Baby I don’t know what I would do
I’d be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now,
How do I live without you? ^

//I can’t live without you, I need you//. She went up to the information desk and asked for Heero’s room number while slipping the attended a small wad of large bills.


Duo woke up alone in the bed, frowning he looked around looking for Heero. //Where did he go?// Getting up he went to take a quick shower. After showering, he got dressed and left the room to find Heero. Passing by the lunch room, he went in and got a cup of coffee for him. //I’m sure he could use a cup//.

Heero was walking down the corridors thinking over the events of last night. He finally got what he wanted, but was berating himself for not telling Duo how he felt. //Does he think it was only sex?// He was ripped out of this thoughts by a familiar and unwanted shrill voice.

“HEEEEEEROOOOOOo” Relena nearly screamed. She ran up to him and glomped onto his arm, a leech attaching itself to its victim. She started babbling endlessly about how glad she was to find him and the sorts. Heero was cringing, furious that It found him again. //Doesn’t she give up?// Thinking of some way to get rid of her, he didn’t notice her moving closer to him, until it was too late. She claimed his lips in a passionate kiss.


Duo was briskly walking down the halls looking for Heero, his spirits lifted because of last night. //I’m going to tell him when I find him//. He was ripped from his thoughts by the scene before him, Relena was clinging to Heero moving closer to him. //Why doesn’t he push her away. NO, NO// He watched as she claimed his mouth and watched Heero do nothing to stop her. Dropping the cup to the floor, it shattered, he spun around and ran in the opposite direction.

@I’m gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain’t nothing but a tragedy
Love don’t leave me@


Heero’s mind was in shock, Relena was kissing him and he wasn’t doing anything to stop her. The sound of something shattering broke him from his stupor, pushing Relena away with a growl, he turned and saw Duo running away. //NO!!!!!// “Duo!! Matte”. He ran after him, praying to catch him and explain. //That damn Relena!!//

#And I can’t stop thinkin’ about
About the way my life would be
No I can’t stop thinkin’ about
How could your love be leaving me
And I can’t get you outta my mind
God knows how hard I tried
And if you walk right out my life
God knows I’d surely die#

Heero’s mind was screaming in pain, how could he hurt Duo like this? Running faster, he tried to catch him. Relena looked up from the ground, she saw the look in Heero’s eyes as he watched Duo run away. //Why does he have that look in his eyes?// Getting up she ran after Heero.


Quatre and Trowa were walking through the park across from the campus. Seeing the road ahead, that separated the park and collage, they saw a figure running their way. Looking closer they saw it was Duo and he was crying. “What happened?” Quatre asked, shaking his head, Trowa sped up to met up with Duo.

Hilde was listening to the radio while driving. She was going down the main campus road, tears were in her eyes as she listened to the words of the song. They struck deep within her heart.

$It’s just another sad love song
Rackin’ my brain like crazy
Guess I’m all torn up
Be it fast or slow
It doesn’t let go
Or shake me
And it’s all because of you

Here comes the strings
Then somebody sings
Only takes a beat
And then it starts killin’ ....$

She didn’t see the figure running across the street with all the tears in her eyes.


“DUO, WATCH OUT!!!!!!!” Quatre and Trowa screamed together.

Heero and Relena were five feet behind Duo, hearing Quatre and Trowa’s warning, Heero looked up and saw the car coming. “DUO!!!!!!!”

Duo didn’t hear anything, his heart and mind were desolate plains of pain. Tears running down his cheeks, his sobs racking his body. He ran across the street, not looking either way.

Hilde looked up right as she hit someone, slamming on the breaks, she felt the body hit the windshield and the roof. Stopping the car, she got out and saw who she hit. “OH GODS NOOOOO!!!!” She ran towards the battered body laying in the street.

Quatre and Trowa ran towards Duo’s limp form, frantically searching for a pulse. Quatre was crying openly, feeling the Duo’s pain in his space heart, trying to calm him down, he spoke reassuring words to Duo hoping they were not in vain.

Heero watched in horror as the car hit Duo, sending him into the windshield of the car and rolling off the roof, landing on the unforgiving concrete. He was in complete shock. //NO!!!!!!// Hearing Hilde’s scream, he ran towards Duo’s side and pulled him into his arms allowing the tears to flow freely. Duo opened his eyes, the orbs were dull. He opened his mouth and choked out:

@Take these broken wings
I’m going to take these broken wings
And learn to fly@

His eyes closed as the sirens of the ambulance were heard. Heero’s whole body was shaking with the uncontrollable sobs, begging Duo not to die.

@It never did a thing for me but heartache and misery@

$Only takes a beat and then it starts killin’ me darlin’$

#That, that I shall never breathe again, Breathe again#

^How do I live without you baby?^

(Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It’s a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Your faith will lead love where it has to go
Never let him go)



Notes: Well minna, should I do a sequel to this songfic series???? C&C is craved as much as pocky!!!! Umm, tchan kinda went wild with this one. Any taring or feathering should be directed at her.