Disclaimer and such : Heero and Duo belong to umm, Bandi I think *sweat* and
not to me. I don't own anything here 'cept the fic. I don't knkow who wrote
or sang this song (unfortunatly) but it wasn't me. If anyone know's tell me
so I can put it up. This fic was writen strictly for entertainment, and no
money is being made from it (yeah, who would pay for that? O.o) . This is a
1/2 fic, Heero/Duo. Heero's POV, about loving and giving Duo up. Yadda yadda
yadda....enjoy. Oh and it's Rated PG.

 

 

 

 

I DON'T WANNA LIVE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE

Fic by : Cassiopeia

~Thought it wouldn't matter
if we didn't stay together~

I never relized how much you really ment to me. I had to be the perfect
soilder, I couldn't afford emotions. I convinced myself that I didn't need
you, so I let you go. It didn't matter cause I was the perfect soilder and I
didn't need anyone. I was fine all by myself. It was better this was...

 

 

~And if it was over
Baby, it was for the better~

You were a liability. If I was worried about you I couldn't concentrate on
the mission at hand. I might do somethign stupid and someone would get hurt.
Or worse I could kill someone important...again. You would be much better
off this way too. Why would you want to waist you're life with someone who
could never tell you how much you were loved? I wanted to tell you...it's
just...I don't even know...

 

~I was thinking I'd be all right
'Til I thought it all through ~

I figured I could live without you, or your smile that seems to brighten up
a room. I wanted to beleive that, I tried to believe that. But here I am
thinking this was such a big mistake. How could I let something as beautiful
as you go? I'm an idiot, that's how.

 

 

~Now I know that I ain't really living
If I have to live without you~

I never thought I would live through this war. I wasn't supposed to, I was
trained to fight and that's it. I wasn't taught to live. Now that you arn't
here I relize I could never live anyway. You were my reason for living, now
there's nothing.

 

 

~*~I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I don't wanna love nobody else
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you~*~

I lay awake at night staring out the window wondering were you are. Missing
the nights when I had you wraped safely in my arms. I miss those night,
filled with love; even if I couldnt' say it, I knew you knew how I felt. I
don't think anyone coudl ever make me feel the way you did...you made me
feel. There was only you, no one else; I don't want anyone else. I want you
back, if it's not to late, I want to hold you again. I want to fill our
nights with love.

~With you~

There's only you. No matter what, I can never love anyone else.

 

 

~Guess I had to go away
So much I had to go through~

After the war, I felt everyone had a place to go, but me. Even Wufei, he
eventually found a place where he belonged. Among people who cared about
him. Trowa went to the circus to be with his sister, and I know he's happy.
Quatre went back with the (Have no idea how to spell it) and you, you had a
friend in Hirde. Relana wanted me to stay with her, but I didn't belong
there. She knew it as much as I did, the life of a diplomate wasn't suited
for me. I needed to get out, to find a place for my self. Somewhere I
belonged.

 

 

~Guess I had to lose you
To realize how much I love you~

I relized then, that I belonged with you. Even if I didn't fit in anywhere I
could fit in with you. You were good with people and coudl have taught me,
but I was too stuborn. I never understood love, untill I lost you. Then I
knew how I felt.

 

 

~Can we make the fires burn again
Burn a little stronger ~

If I came back, would you except me? I know you can teach me how to live,
and I'd be willing to learn, for you. I would learn to live for you. We can
make our love stronger than before, beacure now there is nothing atanding in
the way. I don't have to worry about you going on a missiona dn never coming
back. I can consentrait on you and only on you.

 

 

~Cause I've been alone, and baby
I can't be alone any longer~

I do need you back, I want you back. I know I said I needed time to figure
stuff out, but I was wrong. I should be figuring stuff out wit you by my
side. Helping me along the way. I don't think I can live alone; not now, not
after so much has happened. I need you with me, I need to be with you.

 

 

~*~I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I don't wanna love nobody else
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you~*~

Please Duo, I will find you, and when I do, take me back. I am ready...I
hope, but if not I will face my demons wit you at my side. I'll be stronger
that way. The war is over, I don't have to fight any more. There's nothing
standing in my way. I can make you love me again. I just hop eI'll be able
to show you and tell you how much I love you. I don't want anyone, but you.
You are my strength and I need you. Only you, there's only you. And once I
find you I swear I'll never let go. I'll be there for the rest of your
life...if you still want me.

 

 

~If I had to make it on my own
My life would never be the same~

I don't think I could make it on my own. No, I know I couldn't. I don't
understand this world, or how it owrks. I only know war. I can follow an
order, but when it comes to interaction among civilains I'm stuck. I don't
know what to do.

 

 

~My love would never be the same
And I don't wanna live without your love~

If I lost you for good, I could never love again. I now know what love is,
it's you. You, Duo, are my love. I don't want to be without you another
minute. I will fidn you and never let go. No, that's wrong, I have already
found you. I will get you, and never let go. That is a promise I'm going to
keep with my self as well as with you.

 

 

~*~I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone
(I don't wanna live) ~*~

Those memorize of warm nights snuggled in your embrace are all I have left
to go on. I'm living off of hope, the hope that I can have those nights
back.

 

 

 

~*~I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own~*~

I need you to teach me, and guide me through life. I am blind and I need you
to be my eyes. I don't understand this life, but you do. You embrace it so
openly, and I want you to teach me how to do that. I want to learn to live
like you.

 

 

~*~I don't wanna love nobody else
(Don't wanna love nobody else)
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you ~*~

There's only you, now....forever....only you. I can't think about anyone
else. My everythought is of you, ever memory I still hold. You are apart of
me that I need back. I can't beliece I let you go. I was a fool and I'm
going to correct the error. I will get you back...beacuse I love you.

 

 

(Live my life with you)

I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Only you...I love you!